Q) Is there any New Year celebration plan for you?
Ans) No. There has never been any experience of celebrating New Year parties in my life,nobody talks to me in India and I don't get invited anywhere and I have been brought up kept at home with my parents. As a child I was directed to consume Indian broadcasting on Television but since I do not consume any Indian content anymore I am free from any such consumption.
Q) But you have lived away from your parents for a few years, not even then?
Ans) In Bombay, I liked watching the streets lit up and yes I did walk into places with crowds and music blaring, alone as always but those are the things I could never do in Delhi because I wasn't allowed to be out anywhere.
Q) So, what do you plan to do tonight?
Ans) Listen to music online from radio stations of Lahore,Karachi,London or anywhere else in the world and consume visuals from around the world on snapchat or www.skylinewebcams.com or www.earthcam.com and maybe make and keep photos on my phone.
Q) So, what has kept you busy over the new year weekend?
Ans) The remote access technology tangled and messed and jumbled up all my long hair once again while I was cutting uploads of Lonely Christmas and its been such a nightmare once again so a lot of effort has to once again be spent on rescuing my hair. I do not wish to cut it right now so I hope with fingers crossed and fingers working through my hair to rescue it. But I made up some photos sticking things like flowers and jewels in my hair which stay tucked into the mess otherwise they would slip off.
Q) You had only uploaded a minute or so of Lonely Christmas as a public upload or personal footage, how did you end up sharing so many 3 minute clips?
Ans) I just thought this footage is special for me because I was once again travelling alone to Kashmir and this time with the experience of reading the Holy Quran and Holy Bible so I wanted to give out more of this footage and wanted to place all kinds of music on it and the music search that I started in the 1 minute upload continued and I ended up making 6 clips of 3 minute each and sharing a lot of personal footage, so all of this has been edited and uploaded after the 1 minute upload :)
Q) So, you found more popular songs which obviously belong to other people.
Ans) I am discovering them for the first time, like the one by John Lennon and Yoko Ono about Christmas and New Year
Q) And you ended up putting a lot of personal footage over the precious gem that Last Christmas is?
Ans) Yes, I have very little video footage of myself in life so just wanted to share a little.
Q) And there are no bollywood influences in any of these personal grabs, where you wandered in?
Ans) No. I have now stopped consuming any content from bollywood and I had already stopped consuming Indian television so there are no references or influences from anywhere. So, I am not part of any professional work in any film,ad,tv etc and I have no such experience of being part of any films or videos, I have only been able to know and see that the people who made the work I consumed as a child on Indian film,tv exist and I have picked up some writing tips in a classroom. Bollywood is a bad, vulgar nightmare in my brain which I wish never existed, as bad as the experience of the army school of delhi. I wish both these things like the army school and consuming bollywood never existed in my life. I have no introduction to any camera. But I do consume whatever content I can consume online from Kashmir and from the world online.
Q) But this is all of course personal, consumer footage, you don't have any professional career or professional camera.
Ans) Yes, its all personal. I am not part of any professional life anywhere and don't even know what a professional camera is and have never experienced a professional camera. So, yes, I do miss what these shots would look like shot with a better camera.
Q) Did you feel alone travelling to Srinagar and Gulmarg alone?
Ans) I did when I boarded the flight but allah bless the people of Kashmir they never let me feel I was alone. Also, the remote access technology system was with me. and it's a different experience living with it from within a room and being accessed remotely travelling all alone. They were with me in my most lonely moments.
Q) So, you did realise the worth of it, that it isn't all bad. the science and technology accessing you?
Ans) Yes, I did.
Q) You spent a lot of time Last Christmas and New Year surfing and chatting online last year?
Ans) Yes I logged onto all kinds of web chats and apps and chatted with people like never before, text chatted, snapped,videoed and gave out visuals of myself,face and every part of my body like never before.
Q) Then why not this year?
Ans) Consuming sad news from Kashmir this year online has made me very sad and I don't feel like chatting online today. Personally too, my own life is still stationary within a room for the last 6 years and other than a few 3-4 day trips I haven't lived anywhere else. I have been kept connected through the remote technology system like never before and of course through the internet and computer and phone.
Q) So what are your wishes for the year for everyone and for yourself?
Ans) I hope people are sensitive about people who have suffered death,pain,loss and I hope no such things are created in peoples lives through wars or conflicts and I hope people are able to be happy and peaceful but not by deliberately destroying anybody. And I have hope for my own self that I will get to eventually live some life and work. The conniving systems that tricked my life since birth to ensure i live no life or work of my own and get destroyed and that i remain an isolated singleton whose misery can be watched internally like a 'bare' show and be used through remote access technology should either end now or face me for whatever they made me suffer since childhood. My life as a girlchild and woman has been destroyed strategically in every way.
