THE FACES THEY FORCED ON ME ESPECIALLY IN THE INDIAN GUTTER CITY OF BOMBAY TO PROMOTE THE INDIAN RACE, MALE FEMALES AND MAYBE THEIR OTHER INDIANS

VIDEO OF LIFE IN BOMBAY

SO OBVIOUSLY STILL NO LIFE, CAREER, EARNING INCOME FOR ME IN INDIA. JUST A LIFE AND WOMANHOOD AND CHILDHOOD DESTROYED IN EVERY WAY. THEY HAVE BEEN FORCING FACES OF THEIR INDIAN RACE ON MY OWN FACE SINCE CHILDHOOD THROUGH ADVANCED I.T. REMOTE ACCESS AND 'PLAYING WITH ME' WATCHING ME IN MISERY AND CONFUSION. 

HERE ARE SOME OF THE FACES FORCED ON ME IN THE INDIAN GUTTER CITY OF BOMBAY WHERE OBVIOUSLY ALL OF MY LIFE,STRUGGLE SINCE CHILDHOOD IN DELHI AND FROM OTHER FOLLOWING YEARS WAS LOOTED OPENLY WITH NO LIFE, CAREER,EARNING,DIRECTION FOR ME. WHILE THEY CONTINUED TO WATCH ME IN MISERY PROMOTING THEIR OWN PROSTITUTES, AND FILM FAMILY EGG PROSTITUTE BRANDS SHOVING WORK AND CRORES INTO THEIR GENITALS LOOTING ME OFF NOT JUST MY FACE,BRAIN,BREATH BUT EVEN EVERY ORIGINAL WRITING MATERIAL AND STUDY JUST BECAUSE I WAS ALIVE IN INDIA.

THOSE INDIANS ALONG WITH THEIR FOREIGN PROSSES POCKETED CRORES OF FLIGHT MONEY, WORK CREDIT, DIRECTORIAL PROSS MAKING AND WRITING PRODUCING  CREDIT WITH NO BEGINNING TO MY LIFE OR CAREER IN INDIA, LOOTING ME OFF ALL MY STRUGGLE. FOR ME, SINCE CHILDHOOD, DESPITE EFFORT, STRUGGLE AND SUCCESS THERE WAS THIS KIND OF DESTRUCTION AND ABUSE THAT MY DNA, FACE,BRAIN, BODY, LIFE WAS SUBJECTED TO.

with indian faces forced on my face destroyed.

ITS BEEN DECADES SINCE I NOTICED IN CHILDHOOD THAT 'SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING TO MY FACE' OTHER THAN ALL OF MY BRAIN BUT I WAS NOT ALLOWED A CAMERA. AND IN THE YEARS THAT PASSED THERE WAS NO DIRECTION FOR MY LIFE IN ANY WAY, ONLY HUMILIATING PARTS AND A REAL LIFE SHOW OF SUCH ABUSE.

THEY USED MY FACE SINCE CHILDHOOD AND THROUGH REMOTE ACCESS TECHNOLOGY FORCED FACES OF INDIANS, SOUTH  INDIANS, BENGALIS, HINDU  SCHEDULED CASTES ON MY FACE FOR MORE THAN 3 DECADES ON MY FACE.

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Questions and Answers 

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My Winter Holiday - self shot clips from my phone and camera remembering falling snow

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EXPERIENCING SNOWFALL

Questions & Answers

Q) So you haven’t stepped out of your room for more than 3 weeks now?

Ans) Yes, it’s because of consuming some disturbing news from Kashmir and maybe the recently discovered feeling of snowed-in winter in me. So my life lives within the connected computer box.

Q) So what did you do with that time?

Ans) I tried to read but couldn’t, I looked over my notes and video tapes and cut some visuals up from my phone camera footage when I experienced snowfall for the first time a few months back.

Q) You don’t record your own self much?

Ans) I wanted to as a child and teenager, when I was ignorantly discovering multiple faces on my face and my sensitive skin that was still soft and fresh but I was strictly given no access to a camera so 20 years passed away and when I was directed away from aspiring for tv broadcasting at age 20 and my skin was being destroyed away while multiple faces were still being forced on my face and I finally acquired a consumer video camera I just did not want to videotape my wasted face which has experienced so many faces on it since childhood through technology and wanted to videotape struggle instead.

Q) So why are you doing it now?

Ans) because the phone camera freed me and I liked to keep some pictures of what they were doing to my face by storing it as data within my own phone otherwise I have no records of my existence.

Q) The online media is still special in your life?

Ans) Very special still. When I was studying new media and digital media courses and had begun surfing the world wide web I didn’t realize I would have made it so special in my life, I was just curious about technology and emerging new media.

Q) So you literally be in love with,it?

Ans) technically yes. I realize I’d rather be online consuming the world than be wasted in the same city for 6-7 years.

Q) Did the remote technology system you are accessed through lead you to be constantly online?

Ans) I realized I needed to consume news online and visuals like landscape and live webcams of natural landscape online to feel free. Other than that I recently reconnected to online chatrooms and video chatrooms.

Earlier I had very little experience of it, since I was struggling. I am still struggling but I realized I felt a great need for it now. 

Q) So the technology system you are accessed through isn’t adequate?

Ans) No. I feel a need for lived life. I have no social, professional or personal life. It’s been 7 years more of being accessed through remote technology with no physical presence of people in my life other than a few of my family members. So even though there is voice to skull talk and a highly advanced technology system with all its scientific effort worth celebrating, I miss physical human presence still, I feel my eyes need to see people and faces and places other than just hearing voices in my head and having my body and brain and senses accessed remotely. I have a love hate relationship with this system now.

Q) You enjoyed online chatrooms and online dating?

Ans) I used it for survival now and I felt that’s another scientific effort dedicated to easing lonely people.

I liked text dating online, it’s very creative for literary people and the 24.7 video chatrooms from people around the world. I felt like adding the faces and places missing in my life since I don’t get to travel.

Q) What were your experiences?

Ans) deep,personal,surprising,infinite emotions. It’s a blessing that lonely people sitting or breathing quietly in their rooms, around the world have a choice to not be so lonely any more. Or just two people sitting silently in their rooms do not need to be lonely any more. They have the choice to log on in the times they are feeling lonely,in fear or just need some person to see or talk to or even explore their curiosity about life and people in other places, then take it further or move on in their regular lives. There are various sites like omegle, chat apps, snapchat, Kik and Chatrandom.

It happened between Making Lonely Christmas and My Winter Holiday. I logged onto many chatrooms but 'Chatrandom', the free video chatting chatroom, The Christmas before My Winter Holiday was special online, where anyone can show themselves and be humiliated or be loved was the Greatest Show to log on to. People from every country Showed themselves and they loved and chatted and Showed themselves and Made the Greatest Show. 

Q) and that includes social media profiles?

Ans) Absolutely. Other than logging onto online chatrooms which is purely personal, I source live updates from social media platforms like facebook and recently snapchat where people make an effort to profile a lot of information and visuals and I like to consume them since I do not watch any television still and I feel I owe something to the visuals I consume even if they are free. So I like to give away my own data to add to the wonderful free source online world and maybe that’s how the online world runs and has something for everyone.

Q) What are the love experiences you had with the online spaces you logged onto?

Ans) I cannot share any of that, it is unfair to the people I have been with. But I can say wherever they are in the world, I wish they be happy in whatever way they like to be. And I am very thankful to people who use science to develop such online spaces. Also, since you need to know, yes, I did discover a lot of love experiences remotely too by being humbled by being marooned with my own self for 7 years now within the same room. I really felt that there’s only so much that a woman can breathe her own self with and I really like to be able to love men, even if from a distance. I feel they are simple, blessed people made by the creator, all of them. So, every time I get love online on a lonely day, I just feel like saying , Man, I love you.

Q) So, is it unfortunate for you, that you cannot live the life you can access online in the ‘real world’?

Ans) Yes, it’s a different world, you can make your own experiences and consume what you like till you want to consume it online and the ‘real’ human world is a different place. The online world is created because of all things we cannot do in real life and everything we can do online doesn’t have to be duplicated in the real world, it’s a support system, need based survival mechanism to real life, created by humans of course. But I like to make the most of whatever I can access and use it positively to survive, instead of only mulling over what I don’t get to live.

I want to know about Kashmiri People who have been kept imprisoned and Kashmiri people who have been physically harmed or destroyed.

I am not saying that my life is like imprisonment, that would be belittling the struggle of individuals imprisoned physically in physical prison cells, but I have been given more of a life of being kept within a room with nowhere to go instead of a travelling lifestyle whether in the first 20 years of my life or after.

Especially the last 6 years kept within the same room in Delhi. Of course there has been an internal I.T system that has forced itself into my brain and body and more openly in these last 6 years with more voice to skull talk than ever before which can be interpreted as both imprisonment and freedom depending on how my life is used based on forced remote access. 

Since my life has not been groomed within any newsroom either despite journalism training, I source news online. 

I do not want to consume any indian film,tv prostitutes since my life despite being accessed and used since childhood through i.t and in external ways and despite my struggle since childhood and the professional struggle which was openly looted by India is not like Indias film,tv prostitutes who are given human companionship and humans to love and live with. My internal life and the darkness and torment in it since childhood instead has been used as source material for much humiliation and mock in the Indian business or elsewhere. So, I do not want to consume the lives of these people who raped my insides and gave me no life or career despite a professional and personal struggle since childhood and in both cities of Delhi and Bombay.

Also because of the fact that I live no experience of marriage or motherhood which is also the subject of humiliation by the Indian system I do not want to consume the lives of the indian business that secured the lives of their own daughters.

Instead I want to consume the lives of those people of Kashmir who have been kept imprisoned in the darkness of rooms in prisons or elsewhere. I want to consume the details of their life, their struggle, their efforts made, their broken lives and personal experiences. 

Since my face specifically was played with through forced i.t and then by the age of 20 destroyed away through bacterial chemical adulteration continuously for the next 17 years to live with puss and scars and boils and cuts on my skin to promote indian skin and with adulterated salt chemicals again recently , I want to know more details about every person in Kashmir who has been physically harmed, damaged destroyed in any way.

I don't just want to do web searches on their past reported I want to know how they are now, in the present times through them.

I want to know all details of the internal system of technology of how i was accessed,seen,used since childhood and for 3 decades now and who all have had access to my brain,body,eyes at different stages of my life

I want to know all details of the internal system of technology of how i was accessed,seen,used since childhood and for 3 decades now and who all have had access to my brain,body,eyes at different stages of my life

So, I got used since childhood and for 3 decades now but i was never given a professional career or life to live because all of my struggle was looted from within me and other people farted,shat and pissed their careers on what were meant to be my years for a professional life.

All my life as a woman has also been abused and destroyed so i have no personal life lived instead either.

for the last 6 years i am still accessed remotely from within the delhi room i have been kept in within my own parents home, with no other life or professional care.

I want to know that since childhood, ever since i saw other peoples faces forced on my face in the real life prostitution scam of 'we will use you to act' who are the people who have had access to my bare life through technology as a girlchild and later as a woman whose life they looted, stole, destroyed and abused away. 

My life has been destroyed by india before it could begin in any professional way. Other than basic writing skills picked up since childhood i have no other technical professional training in India despite hardwork,struggle, effort and merit so i demand to know who are the people who have access to my bare internal body and brain, for 3 decades now. I want to see the faces of the people who have accessed me bare in every way. 

Other people are given careers and lives to live each day that my own breath, spirit, thought is looted at source from within the room i am caged in as an unwanted animal. I want to know who are the people who have used me bare since childhood. 

Even if they abused all of my life as a woman looting me of every dignity since childhood giving me no other life to live, no professional career, whether they later directed to thrust a penis in to rape abort me or forced semen in food to rape abort me 16 times over to display their hate towards me, i will never get the dignity that was looted off me since birth since all of my bare insides have been accessed through some technology with no care of what my lived experience has been enduring all this abuse.

I demand to know which are the systems and who are the people who have had access to me bare since childhood.

for another 6 years of my life, each year they have watched my life wasted and destroyed further while furthering their own lives and careers, another year will be destroyed away again.

Several careers and lives have already been furthered,raping mine away, while giving me no professional life other than being free source material.


I want to know which is the system that has destroyed my life since birth for 3 decades now, who are the pimps that get to watch me bare since childhood and for 3 decades now.

Indias political system whose parliament has already been stripped bare publicly forever through the Parliament attack in 2001 is now just a whore house to remarket TV soap farts apart from other piss and potty their business is to make

India's political system whose parliament has already been stripped bare publicly forever through the Parliament attack in 2001 is now just a whore house to remarket TV soap farts apart from other piss and potty their business is to make 

Indian film director pimps are so busy in getting paid to wipe the piss and potty off film family born film star eggs to create work and money and career for them that a childhood like mine that was used, abused internally through remote technology meant nothing to their blind eyes and piss brains to give any career or life to me.

    Indian film director pimps are so busy in    getting  paid to wipe the piss and potty off film family born film star eggs to create work and money and career for them that a childhood like mine that was used, abused internally through remote technology meant nothing to their blind eyes and piss brains to give any career or life to  me. 

Now film family film star eggs are broken at birth to be made into media stories for filth tabloid media to shove more work and money and publicity into the genitals of their film family film star pimp parents. It's their money and work minting Media business plan.

 Meeting film family eggs is such a bad omen and bad experience for the life or career of a struggler like me who was used and made to struggle since childhood for three decades with no realisation of a professional career because all the struggle, effort, is rerouted, redirected towards furthering the careers and businesses of film family film star eggs and their pimps and prostitutes cutting me away from any life or career and further murdering any aspiration.

Even beginning with 2008 when i was still in filth city Bombay, Indians could have given me 10 years of career of any kind, till 2018 instead they gave me nothing other than 10 years of mock, 10 years of humiliation, 10 years of being used,wasted,destroyed further and 10 more years of being used through remote access to be wasted and abused.

Even beginning with 2008 when i was still in filth city Bombay, after a struggle since childhood and being destroyed in several ways and surviving. Indians could have given me 10 years of career of any kind, till 2018, instead they gave me nothing other than 10 years of mock, 10 years of humiliation, 10 years of being used,wasted,destroyed further and 10 more years of being used through remote access to be wasted and abused while they ran career after career raping my life and aspiration.
6 out of these 10 years have been lived within a room in Delhi from where they have been wasting and destroying, using and mocking and humiliating me further to waste and destroy my life and career in every way while furthering their own.

But i was too kind to understand even then that their Indian systems, their prostitution schools and pimp colleges , their indian systems were designed to destroy me, waste me, mock and humiliate me in every way so that they loot my struggle in every way, that i am shown at my worst being the worst and they waste and destroy me from any life and career.

There is still no account of how they raped my life and career aspiration since childhood. How they used me by remote access technology to destroy me since childhood for 37 years now.

IN THESE 10 YEARS SINCE 2008 TO 2018 IN THE NAKED BROTHEL FILM,TV CITY OF BOMBAY THEY GAVE WORK AND WORK, FILM AND FILM, TV AND TV, CAREER AND CAREER TO NAKED PROSSES, COVERED PROSSES, TRAINED PROSSES, UN-TRAINED PROSSES, ADULT PROSSES, MINOR PROSSES, OLD PROSSES, OLD PROSSES RE-MARKETED, NEW PROSSES, CHILDREN OF PROSSES, PARENTS OF PROSSES, FAMILY BRED PROSSES, RICH PROSSES, POOR PROSSES, PROSSES OF FAMOUS PARENTS, PROSSES WHO  MADE THEIR PARENTS FAMOUS, SINGING PROSSES, DANCING PROSSES, FAT PROSSES, SHORT PROSSES, TALL PROSSES, EGG PROSSES


I hate you indians more than you hated me.

"I have been used through i.t and other free to use ways since childhood, Any of the Indian pimp film tv directors of INDIA could have given me any career in any stage of my life, They Did not, they watched me being destroyed"

"I have been used through i.t and other free to use ways since childhood, Any of the Indian pimp film tv directors of INDIA could have given me any career in any stage of my life, They Did not, they watched me being destroyed"


"I was in Bombay till 2012 and i am happy that i will never see the gutters of bombay again. From 2012 my life has been remotely accessed from within my room in Delhi to further waste and destroy me from life and a career "

" I am happier that i do not need to give my presence or friendship or service to any Indian whether in the gutters of Bombay or the power pimp education city Delhi after all my life has been wasted in struggle since childhood, because they will always be given some other body prostitute or some other physical body to be physically present with them in their work and life and to give a career to and make professional careers for, like they did while watching me being destroyed further. All of it has been such a bad experience.''

"It is no surprise that the pimp directors of the Bombay film tv brothel kept adding more work more career more clothes shoes underwear and flight tickets to film family born eggs because when they loot and destroy careers and struggles like mine thats where they pump looted money. But more than money it is about the career lived by looting other peoples struggle."


"I am  more thankful to the SHRAM SADHANA TRUST HOSTEL OF BOMBAY for giving me half a room to live in Bombay during my years there than for any of the indian school, college or other institute for using me as a student."

"It feels like a wretched life at 37 to be made to struggle in every way since childhood and never be given a professional career to live. It only feels all 37 years of my life in struggle were meant to be used as free source material with no realisation of my own career or life"

"Despite being used for free since childhood  and made to struggle since childhood and for 37 years now indians eventually kept my career within the 5,000 - 15,000 monthly salary bracket or used me for free. And this they have done to me who got used and exploited since childhood, who chose to live in India instead of some other country and whose parents selflessly served india in the army and medicine.''

"They are using such an advanced technology system against me for 3 decades now to suck life and breath out of me that they gave me no career or any financial independence that comes with it. '' 

Bombay film pimps never gave me a beginning to any credited work but whatever I struggled with, whatever I succeeded in, whatever I studied and wrote out, they stole every part of it and now they had access to free source material and a ready made blood life struggle they began using as free source material to cast their prostitutes and film family eggs and all of them ate, earned and partied into it. A lifetime of struggle and study with no beginning despite being accessed and abused since childhood, all copied and stolen out, with no life or returns or work or life experience whatsoever. 
They just cut open my life and struggle and stole and copied every word, effort, life experience of struggle, if they had given me work credit for all my struggle that they stole and made me part of work, I would have not just work credit but life to live.

What about the returns I was to get out of the struggle for my parents and any beginning to my own aspirations????

The Bombay film,tv brothel of India is the worst filth of India put on display, they are still living in the time of the dead past when a handful of film family eggs and their prostitutes were given freedom and hoards of monies and material lifestyle and foreign travel to be and make and when the freedom of everyone else was taken away, but now people are free, to be and show and make themselves online and in other ways that didn't exist earlier. 


Consuming Indian film,tv,ad filth business is consuming dead past where they only want to use you as a consumer and out of that they copy,loot,steal and then run their monies,banks, travel and monkey business. 

Happy to never consume any Indian film,tv,ad.

"THE FARTING LOTUS"

Presenting a quick video of FILTH INDIAS NATIONAL POLITICAL FLOWER THE FARTING LOTUS while INDIANS AND THEIR POLITICAL SYSTEM AND INDIAN POLITICIANS PIMPED BY INDIAN PIMPS ARE BUSY ESTABLISHING THEIR POLITICAL CAREERS AND FAME SHOPS BY RAPING OTHER PEOPLES ASPIRATION WHICH IS THEIR REAL BUSINESS AND SYSTEM.

THIGHS

EYES

""Looting, destroying, killing, murdering all Kashmiri people regardless of religion is Indias main business both in Politics and the film, tv brothel business''

DON'T CONSUME THIS INDIAN FILM AND TV INSTITUTE, PUNE. IT WAS THE WORST BROTHEL THAT RAN THE WORST RAPE,SHAME SHOW OVERNIGHT WITH ME IN 2010. DO NOT CONSUME ANY INDIAN FILM TV INSITUTE BROTHELS.

DON'T CONSUME THIS INDIAN FILM AND TV INSTITUTE,PUNE. IT WAS THE WORST BROTHEL THAT RAN THE WORST RAPE,SHAME SHOW OVERNIGHT WITH ME IN 2010.

DO NOT CONSUME ANY INDIAN FILM TV INSITUTE BROTHELS. 

Q) Does it feel strange to you that despite being used since Childhood in abusive ways through i.t technology and externally India ultimately gave you no career?

A) Yes, but thats my experience of the sort of filth country India is. I expected life from them, now I don't expect anything from Indians.

Q) Does it feel strange to you that despite struggling all your life since childhood and choosing to support and promote the film and tv institute of India by enrolling as a student there, you have no career in either Indian film and tv or in any other way? Instead all of their Film and Tv insitute directors were given crores of working careers to market, work with and sell film family film star careers or other Indians?

A) I expect nothing from Indians now, even if they use Pakistanis or foreigners in their brothel film and tv content business because i do not consume them anymore.

It is no surprise to me, because those Indians are directed to destroy me as well, while simultaenously looting me in every way, of a life, career, of all of my struggle. Loot, theft,rape is their main business, their 'creative' work whose high points are film family born eggs is their second business.
So, it does not surprise me, that they abused me since childhood in India but the children they give business and careers and work to are the film family born film star eggs, whose arseholes and genitals are served by them, whose piss and potty they wipe as career and work.
It's not about talent, it is never about talent, it is about who is given work, who is given a career and since the film tv brothel is a naked industry it is for all to see who they give work to, who they shove their rape talent and crores into.

Q) Instead the film and tv institute of india was used as the ground to eventually abuse your body physically

A) Yes, it is all part of the sexual humiliation directed against me since childhood. So what they did to me there at age 29  in 2010 was no surprise. I cannot expect anything 'good' for my life or career from these people. I know Indians will try and 'direct' my real life to destroy me in as many ways as they can while simultaneously greenlighting careers of as many people whose careers and businesses they can run while raping and looting me off my struggle and film family film star eggs are a big part of their business. 

THIS FILM AND TV INSTITUTE CREATED THE WORST RAPE MOCK NIGHT FOR ME OVERNIGHT IN 2010 WHEN I WAS ALONE AND KEPT PAYING THEMSELVES WORK AND MONEY TO ENJOY CAREERS AND MOCK SHOWS.

Q) So where are they exchanging their loot?

A) It works like this, When they loot and destroy the life and career of someone like me who they give no career to, they have a free struggle to use as source material, then they play in 'real' ways without professional career involvement to use everything associated with my struggle and the returns of that 'real play'  through various systems and incidents that were involved in my struggle are rerouted towards whichever male,female prostitute they want to give a career to who they then make professionally through various career opportunities. Their consumers do not know whose struggle they loot, they only know who is made professionally, sold and marketed. So the returns of all that go into their pockets. Nothing of any of my own struggle ever comes to my old parents or our family.

Q) But the film and tv institute of India led you to one job for a year?

A) Scriptwriting skill is only a part of the skills i have had to pick up after i was used and destroyed in other ways in India, my struggle is beyond that. They employed me because I insisted that they should employ me for some time because I could see better by then at age 25 how i was being strategically destroyed and wasted. They wanted somebody else from that classroom and eventually some other student from that classroom insisted that he wanted to be employed there instead of me, so it is openly assumed by all within their system that i am supposed to be cut off and avoided and not the person to be creatively applied and it will always be somebody else. Besides that, it was not content for the Indian film industry or it was not where i was going to create anything of my own struggle, it was about other people creating. 


Q) But if you ever write shouldn't it all be credited to the f.t.i.i

A) No. My writing begins in childhood from home, Delhi and then for a year in Melbourne, but like every other classroom where i learnt because i genuinely wanted to learn something there is credit towards every classroom. But without ever being employed as a writer or even a co-writer to ever write any Indian film made whether at age 22 or 25 what use is it to ever step back into the FTII. My writing is within my journals,my computer and my room.
For what they taught me, i wrote free content within the classroom like every one else, which they can use for free. But if everything i ever write starts being used as free content on the basis of one year at the FTII it will only reveal their poverty! The sex worker, whores in the scriptwriting classroom of pune who sat there with their face and flesh along with their pens, must have their own brothel and writing journeys, similarly I have my own. I have nothing to do with them in any personal way and I want nothing from my life to stolen to be added to their own individual businesses.

Once again with the bad Indian experience I was their unwanted outsider trying to make myself part of their ongoing Indian party  where they are the makers and creatives  busy making their own or shoving work into film family eggs.
Obviously it was well publicised that they can make anybody part of their Film, tv institute of India but they don't have to make that person part of their Indian film or television. 

HAIR

NAILS

EARS

WAIST/STOMACH/BELLY

HANDS

SHOULDERS

NOSE

BRAIN

FACE