I am not saying that my life is like imprisonment, that would be belittling the struggle of individuals imprisoned physically in physical prison cells, but I have been given more of a life of being kept within a room with nowhere to go instead of a travelling lifestyle whether in the first 20 years of my life or after.
Especially the last 6 years kept within the same room in Delhi. Of course there has been an internal I.T system that has forced itself into my brain and body and more openly in these last 6 years with more voice to skull talk than ever before which can be interpreted as both imprisonment and freedom depending on how my life is used based on forced remote access.
Since my life has not been groomed within any newsroom either despite journalism training, I source news online.
I do not want to consume any indian film,tv prostitutes since my life despite being accessed and used since childhood through i.t and in external ways and despite my struggle since childhood and the professional struggle which was openly looted by India is not like Indias film,tv prostitutes who are given human companionship and humans to love and live with. My internal life and the darkness and torment in it since childhood instead has been used as source material for much humiliation and mock in the Indian business or elsewhere. So, I do not want to consume the lives of these people who raped my insides and gave me no life or career despite a professional and personal struggle since childhood and in both cities of Delhi and Bombay.
Also because of the fact that I live no experience of marriage or motherhood which is also the subject of humiliation by the Indian system I do not want to consume the lives of the indian business that secured the lives of their own daughters.
Instead I want to consume the lives of those people of Kashmir who have been kept imprisoned in the darkness of rooms in prisons or elsewhere. I want to consume the details of their life, their struggle, their efforts made, their broken lives and personal experiences.
Especially the last 6 years kept within the same room in Delhi. Of course there has been an internal I.T system that has forced itself into my brain and body and more openly in these last 6 years with more voice to skull talk than ever before which can be interpreted as both imprisonment and freedom depending on how my life is used based on forced remote access.
Since my life has not been groomed within any newsroom either despite journalism training, I source news online.
I do not want to consume any indian film,tv prostitutes since my life despite being accessed and used since childhood through i.t and in external ways and despite my struggle since childhood and the professional struggle which was openly looted by India is not like Indias film,tv prostitutes who are given human companionship and humans to love and live with. My internal life and the darkness and torment in it since childhood instead has been used as source material for much humiliation and mock in the Indian business or elsewhere. So, I do not want to consume the lives of these people who raped my insides and gave me no life or career despite a professional and personal struggle since childhood and in both cities of Delhi and Bombay.
Also because of the fact that I live no experience of marriage or motherhood which is also the subject of humiliation by the Indian system I do not want to consume the lives of the indian business that secured the lives of their own daughters.
Instead I want to consume the lives of those people of Kashmir who have been kept imprisoned in the darkness of rooms in prisons or elsewhere. I want to consume the details of their life, their struggle, their efforts made, their broken lives and personal experiences.
Since my face specifically was played with through forced i.t and then by the age of 20 destroyed away through bacterial chemical adulteration continuously for the next 17 years to live with puss and scars and boils and cuts on my skin to promote indian skin and with adulterated salt chemicals again recently , I want to know more details about every person in Kashmir who has been physically harmed, damaged destroyed in any way.
I don't just want to do web searches on their past reported I want to know how they are now, in the present times through them.
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