38 years of an uneventful no payment life in India

38 YEARS OF AN UNEVENTFUL NO PAYMENT LIFE IN INDIA

                                                   

THEY HAVE KEPT ME CAGED IN A ROOM BARE IN DELHI FOR THE LAST 8 YEARS ACCESSING ME AND FORCING VOICES IN MY HEAD THROUGH A REMOTE ACCESS TECHNOLOGY THAT ACCESSES ME SINCE CHILDHOOD, MODIFYING MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY BY FORCE. THEY HAVE KEPT ME CAGED INDOORS OR IN PUBLIC TRANSPORT,STREETS,PUBLIC ROOMS ALONE ALL MY LIFE.

Q) How active did you imagine your life to be if you were not brought up and kept caged.

Ans) If I were my own real self, I would have loved to move my arms and legs and breathe oxygen and air and travel, outdoors as well as spend time indoors. It was only during the first 5-6 years of my life, that I got to travel with the Indian army travels of my father and the family. I would have liked to travel to foreign countries and to outdoor mountain locations but there was no life like that for us.The first travel that I got on my own was only at age 19 to Pakistan and then for a year to Melbourne when I was readying myself to travel to Kashmir. I was always interested in being employed in paid, creative work but was never made part of any. I was used since childhood but never made part of any professional work.

Q) What sort of events did you see in Delhi when you were growing up?

Ans) I was not made to go anywhere to attend any events, I was kept at home, caged, we only went to people’s homes as a family or to attend weddings, the only occasion to dress up. The Indian army school that I attended, where I was supposed to be present in attendance every day of a miserable life used to use me nearly every day on their extracurricular activities in every way as a free show from thought-reading assemblies, to stage dances, to free show theatre play roles with cram and spit dialogues to waste time on learning and memorizing, to recitation of poetry,debates,prose and stupid events like dumb charades, to sports events meant for every child to attend, to compering events for their school stage where they give off awards to their students, every day for all 12 years spent there, all with a caged body that was being abused internally through a remote access technology remotely accessing and playing with my face,brain,body and while I was simultaneously studying with hard work and struggle for every examination and test. There were no events outside of that cage for me to live or experience. But by the age of 15 I stepped out alone on my own, to try and find work for radio broadcasting and spent my time from age 15-18 for public radio broadcasting including the years of 17-19 when I studied journalism at Lady shriram college where I was forced and pushed into print once again and there were academic journalism events and once again the Indian system used me for administrative jobs while studying like the army school used to, organizing college events for their students etc. When they sent me to be used for a few months by the Times of India tabloid, I got to attend party events in Delhi for the first time ever. Travelling to Pakistan and Then for a year in Melbourne became the only travel events in my life. So, once my human body was freed from the wretched Indian Army Public School, my human body was freed to move and travel alone and I could educate my own self better than the 'showmanship'  stage brothel and classrooms of Indian Army Public School.

THE INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL WAS THE WORST SCHOOL, WHERE I STUDIED FOR EVERY UNIT TEST WEEK AFTER WEEK ON MY OWN. 

WHEREAS THE ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL KEPT USING MY TIME AND PUT ME ON SHOW ON EXTRA CURICULLAR EVENTS EVERY DAY, USING UP ALL MY TIME IN SCHOOL AND AT HOME.  MY BODY WAS BEING REMOTELY ACCESSED WITH DIFFERENT FACES, BODIES, BREATHING WITHOUT ANYBODY TELLING ME WHAT WAS BEING DONE TO MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY THROUGH A VERY ADVANCED REMOTE MACHINE WHICH CAN REMOTELY ACCESS THE FACE,BRAIN.BODY. MY FACE AND LIMBS WERE MOSTLY FATTENED OFF THROUGH THE REMOTE CONTROL.

THE SCHOOL ALIENATED AND SINGLED ME, NOBODY SPOKE TO ME OTHER THAN A SHORT BROWN FEMALE DICK THAT WAS FORCED TO CHASE ME WITH HATE,MOCK AND NEGATIVITY AND WASTE TIME.

THE INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL WERE THE WORST YEARS OF MY LIFE.

THE INDIAN ARMY NEITHER TRAINED MY BODY, NOR WERE THERE TO KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING TO ME, BECAUSE THEY MUST HAVE ALREADY KNOWN.

Q)Which means, by the age of 21, you had experienced a lot of these events created for you during your academic life?

Ans) Yes, other than these things I was used for, the events in my life were the rigorous self study for every unit test, every examination,medical entrance examination, law entrance examination,CAT Management examination other than other self study attending tuition centers for all these examinations.

Q) Where was your own life and personality, other than all these ‘events’ that kept your brain and body busy?

Ans) Nowhere, other than the imaginary space within the home where my soul lives, so I have no childhood experience of being any creator or maker or professional, or of purchasing clothes or lifestyle products or any other self-grooming lifestyle. Also, I was made a full time consumer of Indian television and film including all Indian black and white films of 1950s and coloured films of 1960s, 1970s, 1980s, because of my family since birth which I stopped consuming at age 15 but never a consumer of India's cable television. Maybe the people who pimped me since childhood wanted me caged indoors which became my imaginary world since no body communicated to me outside of it. And obviously I couldn’t tell, neither was ever told that any remote technology system was accessing and playing with everything from my face, to brain and body. Obviously, if someone had loved and cared about me to tell me this as a child, my life would not have looked so and wrecked like this and since I was never given a camera, I would have been interested in using a camera and keeping more visuals of the face especially to see other faces forced on it and start applying myself creatively with it instead of my day and night wasted away in forced ‘nothingness’ to be kept ‘nothing’.  I would have forced the systems to give me a life to live much earlier, other than abuse me as a ‘learn to obey’ slave which I couldn’t do until I was 19.

Q) What about Bombay and it’s BROTHEL, BOLLYWOOD did they not show you any events or life to live?

Ans) Nothing. Since 2002 nothing. I was brought in for a 5,000 ruppee work-from-home-and-study-job in Delhi and they didn’t want to show  me any of their lives or careers. I forced the Film and Television of India to let me study for a year in their film school.
I was wasted,used,abused,exploited for the first 21 years of my life, that became my struggle but at age 21 I was available for professional work for the Bombay industries and they never gave me any life or career. I don't hold the first 21 years of a miserable life in Delhi responsible because patience in any struggle is a struggle we bring with us to begin life and work professionally but the Bombay pimps who were paid to destroy and cut me off from any beginning to a professional life or career  and wasted and stole all of my life, responsible for the theft of my life. They are the visible famous faeces of the monsters of India that represent the Indian monsters that have wasted,exploited, stolen all of my life and enjoyed foreign flights and monies in europe and america etc.
You can struggle,slave,study,succeed with hard work and effort in 'education' but if Indians don't give you the work and the life that comes along with work, your life is destroyed. The Indian system is clever, they use,waste,steal and exploit me and give every work to only their own Indians. 
Every part of me, including my face,brain,flesh,body,skin is, used,wasted,exploited since childhood and I struggle and study beyond it since childhood but I am never given the work, Indians get the work and they pocket credit, they lived life. All of the Indian system across Delhi,Bombay and their South Indian penis brothel etc, along with their american and european lovers and supporters paying,employing and reproducing them, all turned out to be on the same side, wasting,exploiting,destroying,abusing me all of my life. Not only that, they physically destroyed my face and skin and kept my body wasted and caged. Consuming India or Indians, therefore is shelved in my life now.

Q) What kind of events did you get to attend in Bombay after that?

Ans) I stepped out into Bombay on my own  and even though I was given a desk job for a year there was no activity or events in my life. I stepped out to see film makers of India and they showed off their own careers and how they were living professional lives in Bombay with work credit after work credit for their own selves and no work credit for me. They and their television media showed off how they enjoyed lives and careers in the film industry along with television publicity and world travel. But I did get to attend writing events at the Film and Television Institute of India and attend a few film screening events that were happening in Bombay by showing up. And a few months on a theatre stage in a musical because so much of my childhood and life was misled and wasted consuming Indian musicals. Once again my own room in their public hostel became my only event in life, along with consuming life,visuals,music online. Travelling alone in the public transport of Pune,Bombay on buses,trains,local trains,flights to home in Delhi and the sea became the only events in my life. Feeling the presence of oxygen through Bombay breeze and rain which did not exist in my years in Delhi became my only events. Indians never showed me any of their music events or film events or Bollywood shows or award shows for which they travel around in India and abroad on frequent, regular flights or any of their televised lifestyle. No film festivals in India or abroad which they travel regularly for their own selves. No advertising events. They did not show me any travel to any city in India outside Bombay. They travel routinely to mountain location,enjoying film shoots I have been desperate to breathe mountain air since childhood but none of the indian film pimps took me anywhere travelling with them. They did not show me any foreign travel or foreign flight. They never showed me their television studios or broadcasting industries. Indians showed me Nothing despite the way I was exploited since childhood. But they did show me their Indian slums and how faeces can be excreted in Indian style public toilets of public hostels, public lavatories of bus,train stations and that of the toilets of scheduled caste servant quarter apartments. And I don’t want to lose any more of what is left of my life and self respect so I will never go to Bombay whore brothel city ever again.

They are all part of Bollywood, but I am not, I have credit under my own name in my own computer, I was not made part of any Bollywood film,TV work credit. Just as I was never made part of Indian news business or Indian television or media industries.

Q) What made you believe that Indians were going to give or show you an eventful lifestyle which they live and earn for their own selves and their own Indian children?

Ans)They exploited me since childhood all through my years in the Indian education system in the pross making brothel Indian Army Public School and the media pimping and Delhi prossing Lady Shriram College and I worked for everything I was made to do along with struggle and efforts in every academic test and examination so I expected I will get to live an eventful life where I would get to travel and work and earn and experience a life and career.

Q) Didn’t you realise they were already abusing you internally through remote technology and changing your own face and skin and abusing your body since childhood?

Ans) I kept struggling even after they  my skin away through adulterated chemicals and destroyed it permanently with cuts,scars,pits,boils. I kept bleeding into my computer and still kept writing and reading and hoping to be kept alive. It’s my own personality to want to reach out, communicate and to be hard-working despite being kept caged and that’s why I stepped away from home and managed to live from within the same home as well. I imagined I was going to get some life to live because of all of the efforts since childhood.
As expected I was never given any work credit into any Film or television or advertising and everything that I wrote  or whatever happened in my own journey and struggle was stolen by Indians and sold under their own Indian Names. Everything from titles to character names to direction to aspiration was stolen by Indians and marketed by their Indian names.


Q) What do you feel when you see booming Indian television channels other than their paid radio and film with worldwide events where they have space,work and pay for every Indian aspirant?

Ans) I do not consume them now.  They are paid and celebrating their Indian lives, dancing,singing,prostituting in entertainment,news, news parties and media events, studying, in discussions, travelling worldwide on world holiday trips, work travel in multiple foreign countries in events 24.7, events staged all over India and with Indians attending all over the world erecting and promoting hindu idols all over the world. They are enjoying an eventful life for their own Indian sons and daughters along with the rest of the world and they are paid for it.  I do not consume them. I know their Indian system has hated me since my birth in India and I have lived with all their hate forced on my face and body through a remote access remote technology system in India. Despite a timely aspiration in 1999 into Media and journalism and struggle since childhood, Indians never showed me what goes on in this overpaid Indian broadcasting Newsrooms or their Indian news studios or any other studios.

Q) India was paid monies after monies to run 24.7 commercial radio stations and studios and 24.7 television, entertainment and news studios, Have you ever seen or experienced any of those radio and television studios?

Ans) NO. I aspired and struggled for them at a young age, but I have never been made to see or experience any commercial radio or television studio in India. I have never experienced radio or television and the life and monies given to them in India. So, I stopped consuming them and I haven't consumed any Indian radio or television in the last 20 years. 

Q) But the advertising penis run bollywood brothel was full of indian army gay indian army female penis, gay anushka,gay gauri,gay aishwarya,gay sushmita,gay priyanka chopra, gay preeti randi, gay lara, gay mini other gay indian hindu randi chut haddi names of Indian army where crores of work,money was thrust into their indian army underwear where they were spoonfed into work,career,monies,lifestyles,fuck etc and shown every detail of the indian prostitution film,tv markets and events???

Ans) I am not these indian army sluts. Most of them turned out to be The Times of India randi chut defunct brothel miss india gay male beauty paegent brief and underwear prostitutes for all the money, work credit, life experience, fame, advertising prostitution and even political pwer etc put into their briefs for their pimps to use.

 I want nothing to do with Indian army sluts. They are their own children, my own struggle is not like their own children.they alienate me. I am of azad kashmiri origin whose face,brain,body,flesh,aspiration,career was exploited, looted and destroyed since childhood especially since I was made to attend the Indian army school but not any Indian army area or resources. Every part of my dna and personal struggle has been stolen, everything from my face,skin,dna,life,career,creative struggle and qismat has been stolen. For me the Indian army school was never a place for any army style training or education, They are an Indian army of a hijda stage brothel that makes randi chuts and hijda randis and markets them nude in modelling prostitution and acting prostitution along with hijda stage dances and fishes for businesses in India using them and for staging and marketing hideous indian faces and obesities of India for which my human body,face,and brain and lifestyle was caged and modified to stage their Indian black face obesities. That is their main business other than staging Free Shows of real life. Despite my success and struggle and study and a lifetime spent in India, the Hijda Randi Stage brothel called the Indian army has never had a conversation with me and never bothered to know me or communicate with me. My own face,brain, body was being  through an internal technology and whatever the Indian army hijda brothel obesity school was using and staging was not my own personality, it was for their own people and they never cared to know me or converse with me. I don't exist in the Indian Army system and neither did I grow up in their areas or resources, they don't exist in my life. The Indian army school and army system is no relationship with me and never had any care for me, they were in relationships with other members of the family I am born into and I was used for them.  The Indian Army Public School were for my mother Dr Veena Indarpal and Col. Indarpal and my older sisters, My life and human face,brain and body was used there for them and has nothing to do with my own self personality. 

That School or its people never cared about me or the misery or my issues of whatever I was living through. 

 The years spent caged in their Indian army school brothel obesity stage were the worst years of my own life and a childhood wasted,misled and destroyed. The Indian army school and Indian army people is not my school, they are not my people. They made me feel miserable, alienated, avoided, alone and an outsider all my life and never told me how my insides and my face,brain,body was being accessed,played with,modified since childhood through a very powerful remote access technology that can remotely access a human body,face,brain,nervous system,senses in every way and do whatever they want to it.


Q) So, since 2002 after 20 years of being abused and exploited since childhood, when you were available for a paid professional life you have lived no life, you are still nude,bare within your parents home with the only money that only they pay you?

Ans) No. Only a struggle which began since childhood. Still no payment, still no direction, no events, no travel, still not even money to purchase clothes to wear just the way it was in childhood, still nobody communicating with me in any real way. Still no beginning to my life - personal or working life. So, instead of 20 years of a credited working life, instead of 20 years of a professional career, 20 years of a lived lifestyle or career, or even 20 years of the experience or purchasing clothes I am still kept within my parents home with only the money they pay me, while a remote technology system accessing me since childhood continues to access my face,brain,body nude and bare and internally accessing it on the inside. So, the 20 years I was meant to live a working career or lived life with 20 years worth of earning and saving has also been made into ‘Nothing’ by India as they strategized to after exploiting me since childhood.

My human body, face,brain, personality was availability to India since birth especially to the Hijda randi brothel called the Indian army school and despite remote access technology and modifying my face,brain,body but they deliberately wasted my human body and never used my arms or legs in any useful way, avoiding and alienating me. I always stepped out alone into India, to a foreign country alone, to pune and bombay on my own alone and even to Kashmir with my own arms and legs, all alone.


Q) When you finally flew to Srinagar alone in 2011 and returned to Delhi in 2012, were you still expecting Delhi will give you any professional life? Did you not imagine, where your human body,face,brain has been abused internally since childhood and exploited, will something even worse be planned for you?

Ans) I came to be with my parents, because they were old and lonely with me away in another city and hoped I could finally work here with all the skills I have struggled for even if I was never given any life or career to live by India. But an internal system had already planned to make my life experience caged in Delhi even worse to express their hate against me, to send me adulteration and to access into my nude,bare flesh and body and reveal how much they have hated me since childhood that I never seemed to realize still struggling since childhood. That these Indians have a full time job to hate and mock and humiliate me of the dna especially that I am born with, my face,brain,womb,skin,even hair is for them to humiliate,destroy,abuse while they hate me as a person whose original personality they wanted to copy,loot,waste,destroy,modify since childhood for which they have access to very advanced technology through which they have acessed into my face and brain to  access my own dna,face,skin,brain and loot off everything in my brain from within my struggle, to isolate and abandon me, alone as a woman struggling alone till her mid 30’s alone in their public transport and public roads and public spaces and whose nude and bare body they use bare and nude, since childhood till her mid 30’s as free nude,flesh and genital available to them internally through a remote technology system and with no real professional career or life to live. I thought maybe Bombay pimps rejected me every day of my life spent there and never made me part of their lives so maybe Delhi would give me a new life to live out of here forever,  but they only continued to watch me wasted alone on their streets as well just as the power pimps in Bombay had and continued to use my struggle to create careers and working lives for their own Indians.

Q) So, it was all a scam to get you conceived in India and then to breed you to be a consumer of everything Indian since childhood and then make you a struggler and aspirant in their Indian systems and to never give you any life or career because they have a technology system to access into your face,brain,body,dna?

Ans) YES. They forced me to be a consumer of Indian education, Indian television, Indian drama, Indian news, Indian music, Indian politics, Indian film and Indian food. They had already accessed into my face,brain,body and dna and made me struggle since childhood and whatever I struggled for since childhood for 30 years is free source material available to them to erect the professional lives and careers of their own selves based on  my  consumption and aspiration of their systems and even my aspiration for communicating with and consuming international or Kashmir based life and opportunities which they stopped me from and which remained within me as just aspiration, all of which is  38 years of an unpaid, unchanellised life in struggle available for them to be used for their own selves with no professional life or personal life for me.

I HAVE NO TRUST WITH ANY INDIAN OR THEIR EUROPEAN OR AMERICAN  . I HAVE NEVER BEEN GIVEN ANY LIFE WITH THEM AND HAVE BEEN EXPLOITED MISERABLY SINCE CHILDHOOD.
I HAVE BEEN GIVEN NO EDUCATION FOR EUROPE OR AMERICA BY INDIA AND EUROPE AND AMERICA ARE ENJOYING WITH INDIAN MALES,FEMALES,TRANSGENDERS,OTHERS ETC WHO ARE BROUGHT TO THEM TO LIVE,TRAVEL,WORK.

Every day since childhood my face is and they force in Indian faces on my face through remote technology so that my human flesh is used as real life show with a forced Indian face. They started abusing me from my innocent childhood so that as i grew up in innocence I couldn't know what my own real self was, what my own real face was. Most of those faeces were Indian,South Indians,Bangali,Scheduled Castes, male and female and others. By forcing me to be a consumer of india, they accessed my brain and stole my incomplete aspiration for an international lifestyle and about kashmir and internationalised their own selves and crawled into kashmir with it as indians other than squatting all over the world with their own undestroyed Indian faeces and skin.

They  destroyed my face and skin since childhood and by force mixed in the faces and breath and behaviours of their indian scheduled castes, bangalis, south indians, punjabis etc with their very powerful technology so that my own spirit could be looted and stolen and all their indian scheduled castes, bangalis, gujaratis, south indians, punjabis live and work in europe, america or anywhere else in the world, whereas my own spirit was  and my face and skin destroyed for ever since childhood directing my life and career into the scheduled caste servant quarters of Bombay with no beginning to any life or career.

Indians never cared what I was feeling or living through, whether I have any career,creative life,money,marriage or even clothes to wear, whether I had any human being to talk to or any human being caring for me, other than my own parents. 

They only  and abused my face,brain and body, skin to keep forcing their Indian faces on my skin and market their own black and brown Indian faces and Indian hindu names in India and foreign countries and even in Kashmir where they have enjoyed more access to Kashmir than I have ever experienced despite struggle and study.

By forcing me to be a consumer of india and forced me to be in an entertainment and academic struggle simultaneously and never giving me a real life in either and never giving me a professional career or any life to live and by accessing into my face,brain,body they became all the professions and careers,dreams and opportunities they made me struggle for since childhood.

INDIANS AND WHOEVER THEY PIMP FOR, EXPLOITED MY BIRTH IN INDIA AND WANTED ME TO BE THE ONE WITH A BAD FACE,BAD SKIN, BAD BODY, BAD CHARACTER,BAD LIFE AND FOR THAT THEY DESTROYED MY OWN FACE,SKIN AND FORCED IN THEIR INDIAN FILTH INTO MY SENSES. THE PERSON THAT I WAS BORN AS, WITH MY OWN FACE,SKIN, PERSONALITY WAS NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE AND BE AVAILABLE AS A HUMAN RESOURCE AND EVERY PART OF MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY WAS ACCESSED,USED AND MODIFIED.

INDIANS AND WHICHEVER SYSTEM THAT SUPPORTS THEM,INCLUDING ALL THE SYSTEMS I AM BORN INTO HAVE DESTROYED MY OWN FACE,SPIRIT AND BEING SINCE CHILDHOOD AND ACCESSED AND EXPLOITED ME TO FORCE ME TO BECOME MUCK AND FILTH FACED, BLACK FACED, ADULT OR MALE FACED BY FORCE, UNWORTHY OF WELL PAID FINANCIAL CAREERS OR PROFESSIONAL LIFESTYLE DESPITE STRUGGLE AND SUCCESS SINCE CHILDHOOD AND BE KEPT CAGED AS UNMARRAIGBLE OBESITY. SINCE THEY ALREADY HAVE  BEEN ACCESSING AND MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY CHILDHOOD THROUGH VERY HIGH TECHNOLOGY AND OTHER SYSTEMS SINCE CHILDHOOD. LIFE FOR ME BEING BORN AND USED BY INDIA HAS BEEN A BAD EXPERIENCE EVERY DAY AND NIGHT OF MY LIFE.

THEY HAVE KEPT ME REPRESSED SINCE CHILDHOOD AND OTHER THAN MY OWN FACE AND POSSIBILITIES OF LIFE AND CAREER FOR ME, HAVE STOLEN ALL OF MY STRUGGLE FORCING TO KEEP ME REPRESSED AS A CONSUMER WHO THEY CAN ACCESS AND NOTHING MORE THAN THAT. 

MY BIRTH HAS NEVER BEEN ALLOWED TO BE MY OWN BIRTH, IT IS USED FOR OTHER PEOPLES AND SYSTEMS BUSINESSES ABOUT ME, WHICH THEY NEVER TELL ME ABOUT.

THEY KNOW I BEGAN STRUGGLING AND STUDYING SINCE CHILDHOOD AND I KEPT STRUGGLING ALL ALONE AND STUDYING. ESPECIALLY SINCE THE LAST 8 YEARS CAGED IN THIS ROOM, THEY HAVE WORKED ON A SCAM WHERE AFTER DESTROYING ME FROM ANY LIFE OR CAREER, I AM CONSIDERED AN UNWORTHY, UNMARRIED OBESITY SINGLE MALE/FEMALE/HERMAPHRODITE NOT BY CHOICE BUT BY FORCE AND WHO I CANNOT SEE KEEP ACCESSING MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY THROUGH THEIR VERY ADVANCED  REMOTE TECHNOLOGY.


INSTEAD OF LIFE ABOUT MY OWN FACE,BRAIN,ASPIRATION, I HAVE BEEN FORCED TO LIVE A LIFE WITHOUT ANY WORK CREDIT, WITHOUT ANY EARNING, WITHOUT ANY LIFESTYLE, WITHOUT ANY EXPERIENCE OF MARRIAGE, WITHOUT ANY CREDIT ABOUT ANY OF THE WAYS IN WHICH MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY AND STRUGGLE OUTSIDE OF IT HAS BEEN ACCESSED AND ABUSED SINCE CHILDHOOD AND FORCED TO BECOME A CONSUMER CAGED WITHING A ROOM.

THEY WERE ONLY MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY,SKIN. THEY NEVER MADE INTO THEIR ACTRESS OR FILM WRITER OR FILM DIRECTOR OR NEWS BROADCASTER OR ANY WORK CREDIT IN FILM, TELEVISION, ADVERTISING OR EVER INVITED TO ANY EVENTS WITH THEM. THEY STOLE ALL MY STRUGGLE IN THESE FIELDS AND ERECTED THEIR OWN INDIAN NAMES AND FACES IN EVERY CAREER, PROFESSION AND WORK CREDIT.

INSTEAD OF BEING GIVEN ANY PROFESSIONAL WORK THAT I WANTED SINCE CHILDHOOD I WAS FORCED INTO BECOMING A FULL TIME CONSUMER ESPECIALLY OF OLD STALE CONTENT INDIAN PRODUCTS AND THE SCAM HAS BEEN TO FORCE ME TO BECOME AND REMAIN ONLY A CONSUMER WHO THEY HAVE BROKEN INTO SINCE MY CHILDHOOD, 

THEY HAVE PIMPED MY BIRTH AND LIFE AS THAT OF A CONSUMER THEY WANTED TO ACCESS AND PLAY WITH AND HAVE DESTROYED EVERY OTHER SUCCESS AND ASPIRATION IN ME. 

THEY PIMPED MY LIFE, FACE,BRAIN,EYES,BODY IN THEIR CONSUMER MOTI SCAM SINCE CHILDHOOD WHERE I WAS FORCED TO BECOME A CONSUMER OF INDIAN  GIVING AWAY MY OWN INTERESTS, CONSUMING INDIAN FOOD,INDIAN BRANDS,INDIAN HINDU RELIGION, INDIAN EDUCATION,INDIAN MEDIA,INDIAN FILM AND TELEVISION AND INDIAN MUSIC AS A FULL TIME CONSUMER AND EVEN THOUGH I KEPT STRUGGLING TO BE A PROFESSIONAL IN INDIA, THEY STOLE MY LIFE AND CAREER THE WAY THEY HAD STOLEN MY FACE SINCE CHILDHOOD AND AS A CONSUMER MOTTI, THEY COULD ACCESS EVERYTHING I WAS MADE TO CONSUME OR CONSUMED AND COULD ACCESS MY FACE,BRAIN,EYES,EARS,NUDE BODY AND ACCESS ALL THE DATA I CONSUMED AND NEVER GIVE ME MY OWN LIFE OR PROFESSION TO LIVE.

IT IS FOR THEM TO LAUGH AT AS THEY HAVE BEEN LAUGHING SINCE MY BIRTH ABUSING MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY,GENITALS SINCE CHILDHOOD AND DESTROYING MY SKIN AND LOOTING OFF ALL MY STRUGGLE IN INDIA, THAT AT THE AGE OF 38 THEIR INDIAN SYSTEM MIGHT THINK OF  GIVING ANY CAREER OPPORTUNITY TO ME AS A PROFESSIONAL ASSISTANT IN THEIR ADVERTISING INDUSTRY, AS AN ACTOR FOR ANY ACTING PART WHOSE FACE,BODY,BRAIN IS ‘ACTED’WITH AND  AND MODIFIED SINCE CHILDHOOD 24.7, OR AS AN ASSISTANT  IN A BOLLYWOOD OR ANY FILM OR CINEMA, OR GIVEN INDIAN FUNDING TO MAKE INDIE INDEPENDENT FILMS, OR  AS A CREDITED SCRIPTWRITER FOR SCRIPTING ANY BOLLYWOOD FILM OR TELEVISION, AS ANY IN FRONT OR BEHIND THE SCENES JOB IN THEIR TELEVISION INDUSTRY, AS A PAID JOB IN THEIR COMMERCIAL RADIO INDUSTRY, OR INTRODUCED AS AN ASSISTANT IN THEIR SEVERAL MUSIC INDUSTRIES, AS AN ASSISTANT IN THEIR TELEVISION NEWS JOURNALISM INDUSTRY AND SEVERAL MEDIA NEWS AND ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRIES OR AS BROTHEL PROSTITUTION IN THEIR POLITICAL PARTY INDUSTRY CALLED A POLITICIAN OR ANY WORKING LIFE IN ANY FOREIGN COUNTRY INCLUDING KASHMIR, ALL OF WHICH INDIANS HAVE ACCESSED INTO MY ,BRAIN FOR AND ENJOYED FOR THEIR OWN SELVES AND THEIR OWN INDIANS WITH NO BEGINNING TO MY LIFE OR CAREER IN ANY PERSONAL OR PROFESSIONAL WAY.

THEY MY  FACE AND ERECTED THEIR OWN FACES AS VISIBLE FACES. THEY STOLE MY CREATIVE STRUGGLE AND ERECTED THEIR OWN SELVES AS ACTRESSES,WRITERS,FILMMAKERS,INTERNATIONAL WORLD TRAVELERS,TELEVISION BROADCASTERS.

NOW I AM FREE TO NEVER CONSUME ANY INDIAN, INDIAN HINDU RELIGION, INDIAN PIMP SCHOOL, COLLEGE EDUCATION BROTHELS, INDIAN TELEVISION, INDIAN NEWS, INDIAN POLITICIANS, INDIAN WRITING, INDIAN MUSIC OR INDIAN FILM BOLLYWOOD. 

NOW I HAVE ACCESS TO THE INTERNET AND BOOKS AND VISUALS AVAILABLE FROM THE WORLD ON THE INTERNET TO CONSUME AND I DON'T NEED TO GO THROUGH INDIAN PIMPS TO CONSUME THE WORLD AND OUTER SPACE ON THE INTERNET.

NOW I HAVE A CAMERA IN MY PHONE, I CLICK A BARE PIC OF MY DESTROYED FACE WITH SOMEBODY ELSE'S FACE STILL FORCED ON IT THROUGH A REMOTE TECHNOLOGY THAT ACCESSES ME BARE SINCE CHILDHOOD AND GIVE IT OFF ON THE INTERNET FOR FREE LIKE THE CONTENT I CAN CONSUME ON THE INTERNET FOR FREE
THE MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT IS KEPT ZERO AS IT WAS SINCE CHILDHOOD WITH NO PAYMENT IN ANY INDIAN CURRENCY EVER MADE TO ME AND NO BEGINNING TO ANY PROFESSIONAL CAREER OR PERSONAL LIFE OTHER THAN THE MONEY GIVEN BY MY PARENTS TO ME TO SURVIVE WITH.


DESPITE MY STRUGGLE AND SUCCESS SINCE CHILDHOOD THE SYSTEMS I AM BORN INTO, FAMILY AND THE EVIL SYSTEMS OF DELHI AND BOMBAY BY USING ME FOR FREE ALL MY LIFE WANTED TO PUT ON SHOW I AM DEPENDENT ON AND EAT MY PARENTS MONEY SO THAT THE FAMILY KEEPS MOCKING AND CURSING ME SINCE CHILDHOOD AND INDIANS CAN ENJOY MOCKING AND HUMILIATING INSTEAD OF USING AND  PAYING ME WITH ANY PROFESSIONAL FINANCIAL DIGNITY DESPITE ACCESSING AND EXPLOITING ME SINCE CHILDHOOD WHILE THEY KEPT THEIR OWN INDIAN SONS AND DAUGHTERS PAID WITH ALL THEIR MONEY.


IT WAS NOT ABOUT MY OWN DREAMS. IT WAS ABOUT THEIR OWN AND THEY USED ME FOR IT.
FOR 7 YEARS AND 7 MONTHS IN THIS ROOM WHERE I AM CAGED, THEY HAVE BEEN DUMPING THEIR 'DREAMS' INTO MY BRAIN.

IT WASN'T ABOUT A CREDITED PROFESSIONAL WORKING LIFE FOR ME, OTHERWISE I WOULD HAVE LIVED IT. IT WAS ABOUT THEIR SYSTEMS WATCHING ME STRUGGLE, ACCESSING  MY DNA,STUDY,CREATIVITY,STRUGGLE,DESTROYING ME PHYSICALLY AND IN EVERY OTHER WAY AND LOOTING ALL OF MY LIFE.

IN INDIA, THEY HAVE GIVEN ME NEITHER A PROFESSIONAL LIFE DESPITE AN ACADEMIC STRUGGLE SINCE CHILDHOOD THAT IS STILL ONGOING, NOR HAVE THEY GIVEN ME THE PROFESSIONAL LIVES OF THE BOMBAY - DELHI BASED FILM,TELEVISION,MEDIA,ADVERTISING PROFESSIONALS AND OF COURSE I LIVED IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY ONLY FOR ONE YEAR WHERE I TRAVELED FOR THE FIRST AND ONLY TIME IN MY LIFE. THEY HAVE JUST USED MY FACE AND FLESH AND SINCE CHILDHOOD, EVEN AFTER DESTROYING MY SKIN, THEY USE MY FLESH TO FORCE IN THE FACES OF INDIANS - MALES AND FEMALES ON MY FACE WITH NO BEGINNING TO MY OWN LIFE. SOME HUMANS DECIDED SINCE MY CHILDHOOD, THAT THEY COULD DO ANYTHING THEY WANTED TO MY FACE,FLESH,BRAIN,SENSES,BREATH AND EVEN IN MY 38TH YEAR,YEARS AFTER DESTROYING MY SKIN AND ABUSING MY FACE EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE, THEY ARE STILL ACCESSING ME IN EVERY WAY, ESPECIALLY MY OWN FACE, THEIR FIRST TARGET.

THEY USE REMOTE TECHNOLOGY SINCE CHILDHOOD TO CHANGE THE FACE WITH ANY FACE SHAPES OR OTHER PEOPLES FACES, FACIAL FEATURES WITH ANY LIPS,ANY  SMILE, ANY VOICE,  ANY HANDS BUT  NEVER GIVE ANY PROFESSIONAL DIRECTION OTHER THAN HUMILIATING EXPERIENCES ON UNPAID FREE SHOW. THEY ADDED ANY BEHAVIOR, ANY FEELING, ANYBODY ELSE'S BREATHING INTO MY HUMAN BODY AND BRAIN AND ACCESSED MY OWN AND USED IT.

THERE IS NO ACKNOWLEDGEMENT THAT MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY HAS BEEN ACCESSED, PLAYED THROUGH REMOTE TECHNOLOGY AND OTHER METHODS SINCE CHILDHOOD. 

BY ACCESSING AND USING ME AND MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY UNPAID 24.7 AND A STRUGGLE ALONE THAT GOES BEYOND MY OWN FACE AND BODY, AND USING ME FOR FREE, UNPAID OR IF EVER PAID, PAID THE LOWEST AT 150 RUPEES, 5,000 RUPEES A MONTH AND NOT MORE THAN 25,000 PER MONTH EVER, I  HAVE NEVER BEEN GIVEN THE WORK OR PAYMENT DESPITE BEING USED AND NEVER BEEN PAID TO EARN OR SAVE WHICH MEANS NEITHER DID INDIANS WANT ME TO EARN OR SAVE FOR HEALTH CARE OR FOR MAKING A HOME OF MY OWN, TO GIVE TO MY PARENTS OR FAMILY MEMBERS, TRAVEL, INVESTMENTS NOR ANY MONEY TO GIVE BIRTH TO, RAISE AND PAY FOR A CHILD.

WHEN DOES MY LIFE BEGIN?

Wishing a Happy Fathers Day to fathers and my father.

                                  

Q) What are your wishes to your father on International Fathers Day?

Ans) Health and Happiness. Especially for a lifetime of hardwork.

Q) Since you are the youngest child, you have seen only the later part of your fathers life in Delhi, do you feel you have missed out on anything?

Ans) I dont think about that. I have my own journey. I know I wasnt born to a very young father and I have grown up after my parents have lived their life experiences and for me that is good. I got the benefit of learning from my parents life experiences and wisdom.I grew up studying the photos in my parents photo album about their life before I was born.

Q) You haven't lived and shared the Indian army life, your father served ?

Ans) No. Very little. Only for the primary school years of my life, when I travelled with the family to various army postings where our father was posted or that the family travelled to. After that I grew up in the civil area of Delhi and while our father used to stay away in places where he was posted, I grew up under my mothers service in Delhi and we travelled in the summer vacation to wherever our father was posted. After that he moved back to Delhi.

Q)Does your father scold and discipline you because of the army lifestyle he served??

Ans)Maybe. He tried very hard to discipline me for a life in Delhi, but I just wanted to be free and outdoors. I get scolded a lot since childhood and as a child I used to get hurt at every joke or comment or scolding, but over the years I learnt the wisdom of parents teaches about the vicious world that exists outside the comfort of the home and family you grow up in.

Q) So you didn't mind your father scolding you?
Ans) I wish that didnt happen, but thats the real world of being prepared at home for the sort of hate that exists outside of a home. As I said, I am born as the youngest so I receive more wisdom about right and wrong through the scolding I receive. More than any other relationship, a father who is strict is doing his job in a real way, bringing all the wisdom of experience, than being a soft father who lets you do whatever you want and get destroyed with it.

Q) But you cant do the same thing of raising your voice against your father?

Ans) I have raised my voice for the first time since 2011 against every human being, because its been too long for being forced to be a puppet controlled and modified through technology since childhood without ever being told how i was accessed and puppeted. So, its the first time I have lived with my voice raised and speaking in an ill language which I have never done in my childhood.
I felt bad about it of course, the most about having to speak ill with my parents, so sometimes I wondered if my father is also puppeted remotely and programmed to keep scolding me.


Q) Obviously you have done a lot of things on your own wish without being directed by your father, which makes you a very spoilt child on your own, how did your father manage to keep you consistent in study during your younger years?

Ans) I like to study but I get distracted by a lot of new things in the world. But it was only because of my fathers strict discipline that I was able to study and appear for a lot of professional competitive entrance examinations in Delhi, otherwise I would have just been a face,brain,body puppeted through some remote access technology and other methods and cut off from any aspiration to experience and live my own academic worth. When My parents came to see me as I studied for a year in Melbourne, it was my parents first travel to any foreign country and I felt very happy about it.

For all the bad things I have done and for the bad things happened to me, I want to keep saying Sorry to my father but its also my right to explain that there has been a remote technology system accessing and trying to make a puppet out of me

FREEDOM FROM CONSUMING INDIAN CONTENT.

FREEDOM.

FREEDOM FROM CONSUMING INDIAN CONTENT. 

FREEDOM FROM BEING FORCED TO CONSUME INDIAN FILM, FREEDOM FROM CONSUMING BOLLYWOOD, FREEDOM FROM CONSUMING INDIAN TELEVISION, INDIAN PROSTITUTION, INDIAN EDUCATION,INDIAN MUSIC, INDIAN LITERATURE, INDIAN POLITICIANS, INDIAN THEATER, INDIAN DRAMAS, FREEDOM FROM INDIAN SEMEN, FREEDOM FROM INDIAN HINDI,INDIAN HINDU, INDIAN HINDU IDOLS.

FREEDOM.


GOD BLESS CHRISTIAN. ALLAH BLESS MUSLIM. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME LEARN FROM YOU.

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A MEANINGLESS LIFE IN INDIA

A MEANINGLESS LIFE IN INDIA

       

Indians used me since childhood since I was born here, I never wished any ill for anyone, not even an Indian, but over the years I realised that those Indians were wishing ill and bad things for me and that they were not my own people, I imagined myself to be growing up among my own people and was made to consume their Indian film and television and Indian education, but I realised despite my struggle since childhood they never considered me their own. They were wishing me ill, giving me hateful and jealous taunts, they didn't want me to live and prosper among them. 

An Internal remote control technology system had access to my bare face,brain,body,vagina since my childhood, but I was never told about it, the army school that started using and exhausting me in their extraneous extra curricular activities, never really bothered to train or groom my face,brain,body according to their military standards, I only managed to travel a little during the early years of my childhood along with my parents and as a family and after that it was years of being forced to live indoors in a civil government area in Delhi. 

I still never spoke ill against anyone, not even an Indian. I had no other people of my own, other than family members and thought they were also our people.

Over the years, I realised, that Indians had plotted to abuse my life in every way, so that i was available as a face,brain,body to abused by them and over the years wherever i struggled I only realised they were not making me part of their happy, flourishing Indian systems. At every stage, they tried to destroy whatever I succeeded in, internally they were abusing my face,brain,body and every year of struggle they tried new ways to cut,destroy wherever i struggled, but for their own children they arranged all opportunities and gave them lives and careers.

My face, since my childhood through a technology that can remotely access the face,brain,body and do whatever they want with it,  they forced in their own Indian faces on my own face and never told me what they were doing to me, all my childhood was in misery, eventually they my skin through adulterated chemicals in adulterated milk and salt. spoiling my face and skin, will not 'beautify' their own Indian faces which they spend crores of money on fake film,television,make-up,studios,lighting etc on, but appreciating my own kashmiri face and skin among their own people would have made them beautiful, which they will never be now, they will remain ugly and hideous in my memory forever.

My human body which was being accessed remotely through an advanced technology system which can remotely access the brain,face,body and do whatever they want with it, 'played' with me, watching me slide my vagina onto wood pieces, wooden bedsides, wooden chairs and metal railings but never came to me to heal or stop or direct me. They must have watched me bare since childhood without bothering what happens to my own face,brain,body,vagina which they had access to and were 'playing with'.
Even if I wasn't brought up an item dancer prostitute with freely moving arms,legs and light waist, I still had a face,breasts and vagina to be played with.

Although the Indian army school was exploiting my childhood through extraneous on-stage parts where i was meant to show up in old hand-me down clothes of my own relatives or just show up every day for extraneous activities and on strange presence despite academic struggle along side which they possibly wanted to destroy, India never gave me any stage parts or stage experiences and nothing worth remembering. Their stage directors of bombay and delhi only exploited me on stage with humiliating parts with no direction to life and gave no memory worth remembering. 
Since I was not given any camera access by my family and I still do not own or have access to any photo camera other than the phone, I do not have my own memories made by myself of a rotten filth Indian childhood either. I do not consume Indian direction any more.

I don't want any Indian army slut to use or represent me in any way, because I was never given their resources, travels or lifestyles or any military training. I was kept mostly in a civil area caged indoors and used in the Indian army school and their extraneous excess activities to use my time while I was caged in misery in isolation with a remote technology system accessing and abusing and forcing itself onto my face,skin,brain.breath.body for years together as I always struggled alone on the streets and public transport of Delhi and then in Bombay, all alone, abandoned and isolated as always still continuing a lonely academic struggle started since childhood.

I struggled to be a part of broadcasting, I struggled with radio speech training along with studying science. Indians eventually never made me part of their own radio broadcasting or television broadcasting resources or lifestyles. Whatever 'radio' experience I got since age 15 was never professionalised despite effort and struggle and time spent and like everything else I struggled for was labelled 'amateur' and hobbified into a hobby scam my life was directed towards. I was neither shown into their Indian commercial radio business where they sell junk and filth and earn money, nor was I ever shown their television business, of entertainment of journalism, where they sell lies and commercial businesses. For their own Indian children of all colours, shapes, sizes they opened all professional career doors in radio and television, entertainment and journalism and gave them education,technical training, salaries,travel, careers.
They never showed me any of their television or news journalism commercial business studios and erected their own Indian males and females, Indian sons and daughters into overpaid television and news journalism business jobs.

I do not consume any Indian radio or television any more.

My family had made me consume old Indian films since childhood and that cost me a lot of time in my childhood and even though I struggled to be one with Indians in their film, they directed to keep me caged within my own family with the lowest income and never considered me a part of their own selves. I forced my self into their film school where they didn't want me and consumed old films from other parts of the world and began writing. Although they did lead me to a low income desk job, they never made me part of any credited work.
India's system is designed to copy, so while they  me from all work credit, they copied and stole everything I struggled to write alone,struggling alone in half public rooms and gave it their own Indian names and furthered their own businesses and media fame and travel.

Although I struggled on the streets of Bombay, in half rooms, in public transport systems on roads,buses,trains and eventually led into scheduled caste servant quarter apartments, they gave me no train or flight ticket to anywhere and showed me no part of India other than Pune, Bombay. 
Although Indian 'film directors' showed off how they were paid monies to make film,after film and how they ran their businesses and frequent travel, Indians did not give me any technical training or access to any of their resources or cameras and obviously never directed to make me into a film director either.

They kept flying their own Indian daughters and sons on frequent, multiple foreign flights to foreign film festivals and film shoot holiday trips and gave me no direction or flight or travel to anywhere. The same set of paid Indian nangi kaali bandariyas (transgender monkeys of India) were flown year after year by India in western hand me down baby frocks and nangi saris to Foreign Film festivals in France and other paid holiday chutti parties by Indian fart holes.

Although Bombay city runs 24.7 powered entertainment shows, they never invited me or showed me any of their lives or shows. 

All along the remote technology remote control system was still watching me alone on the streets of Bombay and my own face and playing with my brain and body. I had no other life to live.

Only because of the world wide web, I could reconnect with places and people, Although I was reading books and educating my own self, with access to google search and social media, I could keep educating my own curiosity and connect with people in Kashmir.

In India my face,brain,body were all made part of mock shows to be wasted,destroyed,humiliated and no beginning ever given to my professional or personal life, every part of my face and human body has been severely humiliated by Indians and sold internally as mock shows.

Indians never gave me any financial independence either, with the lowest paying ,5,000-20,000 jobs in places where otherwise lakhs and crores of money are thrust in and forced me to be dependent on my own parents.

Since 2012, the remote technology system began openly accessing my face,brain,body from within the room in Delhi where I came to live with my parents, They wanted it to be the worst experience for me, where they wanted to stop me further from becoming a part of their professional commercial Indian public systems and sold mock shows out of my face,brain,body, fed me more adulteration, did whatever they wanted to my face,brain,body through their remote access technology and continued to watch me alone on the streets of Delhi never coming to give me any professional life to live, or any other life here,, while stealing every part of my struggle in their Indian systems and giving work after work, career after career to their own Indian daughters of Indian hindu parents. They were forcing in any 'breath' they wanted into me to destroy my own speech and thought process instead of channelising me or allowing me to write anything further. 

For 7 years within this room I am typing from, they wasted my life further to me from any professional public space career or any other life to live. Despite my face and skin raped and body violated they continued to abuse my face,brain,body,breath for 7 years caged in a bed within this room and occassionally were forced to return my own face back to me. They could have given me any life,career,travel at least for these 7 years, they could have finally made me into something, made me into a working, paid ,creative professional based on my struggle or set me free to live any personal life experiences which still dont even exist in my life. But they turned out to be enemies as well who wanted to waste,exploit,destroy me further.

An infinite number of people are showing themselves as their own selves on social media platforms and online channels, other than paid prostitution work in film,television,advertising where they show their own face, but only my own face has been selectively massacred since childhood with a remote technology system penetrating my face since childhood and forcing some other faces on my face by force and never stopping for decades, despite destroying my face and skin altogether through adulterated chemicals in milk and salt. I have been given no rights to my own face, nor any life or work.
They have considered me and used me as a dead piece of human flesh since childhood and consider me to have no feeling of my own, they did whatever they wanted to do to me and raped my face since childhood, forced in faces of adults, adult women,adult relatives,fat brown obese indians, males,men,boys on my face since childhood while accessing all parts of my face,brain,body,vagina. While I studied and aspired and struggle they raped my face,brain,body and enjoyed accessing and using me. There is no acknowledgment in any public way what they have done to me since childhood.

Indians take the worst of their people and give them the best of the resources accessible to them but despite abusing me since childhood since my availability to them, they never made me part of their credited work or any of their technical resources.

Although the Indian school and college did try to use and exhaust me, what India really did was to waste my face,brain,body,struggle since childhood while accessing and using all of me as free resource. Childhood should be free and youth should be made of struggle which gets paid, instead India caged me since childhood and exploited me and never paid me anything as I just kept struggling year after year, while they were copying,wasting and destroying me and giving professional opportunities to their own Indian children.

India wasted me as a human resource available to them.

It isn't me who didn't want to be one with Indians, I was born and brought up here, I considered all people good. I lived here, I struggled with Indian faces forced on my face since childhood, I studied in their education system sacrificing my own pleasures despite being exploited by their school and college, I struggled within their public spaces, public half rooms and public transport, all alone, it is Indians who didn't want me among them, it is Indian's who got me caged back into the same family I am born in, it is Indians who willed to destroy my face,personality,speech,character in every way so that they could openly copy and steal every part of my struggle and use it as free source for their Indian daughters and Indian sons and even foreigners without ever giving me my own rights.

They have watched every year of my life wasted and destroyed, with no professional or personal beginning to my life, that's how they, copy and steal and that's how they earn crores of stolen money, never paying me anything, never making me a part of their lives in India.

It isn't just me whose lifetime of struggle since childhood with every part of my face,brain,body,effort,study, accessed,used,abused, has been unpaid,without any professional work credit, but the returns that my struggle is to give to my parents and my people haven't been given, so it isn't just me whose years of life have been wasted,destroyed and the earnings that were meant to reach me have been stolen. 

A meaningless academic struggle has been thrust upon me as a student in India while I was being used by the Indian army school for their extraneous activities and abused through remote technology of my own face,brain,body,breath. I have struggled to attend and succeed in every 'school' unit test, science in high school, medical entrance examinations, Indian law entrance examinations, journalism in Delhi university, CAT management entrance examinations, digital,new media,video study in one year in Melbourne arranged by Delhi University,  Film school study at the Film and TV institute of India and then consistent self study with NO break-in into the Indian career market other than low paying desk jobs while their system kept abusing my face especially and then destroyed my face and skin altogether through adulterated chemicals.

I do not consume Indians any more. Now despite a lifetime used up in India and a remote technology system that still tries to force in whatever they want into my brain, My senses are now free from consuming India, I do not have to consume any more Indian education, Indian television, Indian film, Indian news, Indian content, Indian music or Indian politics for which they wanted to use me as a consumer. 

It has been a meaningless life in India with my own face and skin destroyed by force and through remote access technology, my body violated and mocked, with no creative work, no work credit, no financial independence, no marriage, no childbirth or motherhood, with no travel journeys and work experience,with no progressive technical training  and with a remote technology system accessing and modifying my face,brain,body and thrusting their 'dreams' and breath into my brain with no direction whatsoever.

Whatever is good in me they wanted to strategically and openly destroy, from the external physical attributes of the face,skin,even hair,good speech, they wanted to mislead and destroy all of it, to a consistent academic struggle, never channelised to be creative or professional.

While they have watched me on their streets and struggle for a beginning to any work credit since childhood, they did not apply my face,brain,body which has been violated in struggle since childhood in any creative way or professional use, instead they kept watching me struggle within my own self and wanted me to implode within my own self.

Q and A - STILL A MEANINGLESS LIFE

IS YOUR LIFE STILL MEANINGLESS EVEN TODAY AT AGE 38?

YES. ITS BEEN 7 YEARS IN DELHI SINCE I HAVE BEEN LAID ON A BED AND CAGED IN A BEDROOM AND BATHROOM WHILE A VERY ADVANCED REMOTE TECHNOLOGY SYSTEM STILL ACCESSES MY BRAIN,BODY,FACE BARE AND NUDE AND USES ME IN WHATEVER THEY WANT TO WHILE I STILL STRUGGLE WITH MY OWN SELF WITHIN A ROOM AND OUTSIDE OF IT. I HAVE THE INTERNET, A PHONE AND SOME BOOKS FOR COMPANY AND NO OTHER BEGINNING TO ANY LIFE TO LIVE.

I AM TOLD I WAS REMOTELY ACCESSED LIKE THIS SINCE CHILDHOOD BUT NEVER MADE PART OF ANY PROFESSIONAL WORK DESPITE BEING INTERESTED IN A WORKING LIFE, SO THEY HAVE BEEN 'PLAYING' WITH MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY SINCE PRIMARY SCHOOL IN INDIA AND WATCHING ME NUDE AND BARE CAGED, CONSUMING AND STRUGGLING SINCE CHILDHOOD, WHEREAS I KEPT SHOWING UP ON A SCHOOL DESK STRUGGLING AND STUDYING WHILE MY PARENTS PAID SCHOOL FEES AND I GOT USED SINCE CHILDHOOD IN EXTRANEOUS FREE SHOW ON STAGE ACTIVITIES BY THE INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL NEVER BEING TOLD HOW MY FACE,BODY,BRAIN,FLESH WAS ACCESSED AND PLAYED WITH LIKE A REALITY SHOW 24.7. SO, I WAS CAGED AT HOMES IN DELHI WITH NO CAMERA OF MY OWN SINCE CHILDHOOD WITH SOMEBODY ELSES FACE FORCED ON MY FACE WITH HUGE,OBESE INDIAN FACES, ADULT FACES OF OLDER PEOPLE, FACES OF OUR RELATIVES AND MALE FACES FORCED ON MY FACE WITH MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY,FLESH ACCESSED SEEN,HEARD AND READ SINCE CHILDHOOD AS I SAT THROUGH UNIT TEST AFTER UNIT TEST, EXAMINATION AFTER EXAMINATION, ENTRANCE EXAMINATION AFTER EXAMINATION AND ON MY OWN ON THE STREETS OF INDIA STILL WITH NO DIRECTION GIVEN TO MY FACE,BODY OR LIMBS, DESPITE BEING AVAILABLE ON MY OWN WITHIN THE BROTHEL PROSS MAKING INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL OF NEW DELHI, AND ON MY OWN IN PUBLIC INDIAN RADIO AND THEATRE GROUPS OF DELHI. I WAS USED BY AVOIDED AND REJECTED FROM ANY BREAK IN THROUGH DELHI.

DO YOU FEEL THAT THE WAY THEY STARTED ACCESSING YOU NUDE AND BARE SINCE CHILDHOOD AND WHEN YOU STARTED DOING MORE TO YOUR OWN FLESH SINCE CHILDHOOD THEY GOT A SEXUALLY ACTIVE AND SEXUALLY READY FEMALE FLESH IN YOU TO WATCH NUDE AND BARE SINCE CHILDHOOD, CAGED IN A HOUSE???

I WAS KEPT MOSTLY CAGED IN A HOUSE, AND WAS BEING MADE INTO A CONSUMER OF EVERYTHING INDIAN, NOBODY GAVE FREEDOM TO MY LIMBS,TO MY OWN FACE AND THERE WAS NO FRESH AIR TO BREATHE. WHEN I WAS MADE TO LIP KISS MY MOTHER AND SLEPT NEXT TO HER BODY SINCE CHILDHOOD AND SPREAD MY LEGS ONTO A HORSE, THE SPACE BETWEEN MY LEGS WAS VERY SEXUALLY ACTIVE MAYBE SINCE THE AGE OF 4 and the AGE of 7. I WAS CONSUMING EVERYTHING ON INDIAN FILM AND TELEVISION, INCLUDING OLD RETRO CINEMA FROM 1950s, 1960s, 1970s WITH HEAPS AND HEAPS OF FOOD SERVED AND FORCED IN BY THE FAMILY WITH NO FRESH AIR TO BREATHE OR ADEQUATE MOVEMENT FOR MY LIMBS OR ANY SELF EXPRESSION. SO WHEN I STARTED SPREADING MY LEGS ON WOODEN FURNITURE PIECES, LIKE A CHALKBOARD,BED SIDE, AT AGE 7 AND A METAL RAILING SINCE AGE 10 IT BECAME A PART OF MY LIFE WITH NO HUMAN STOPPING MY FLESH ABUSED OR DIRECTING ME IN LIFE.

Q) IS IT HORSE RIDING THAT MADE YOU RIDE EVERYTHING YOU FOUND AROUND YOU?

ANS) I HAD BEEN ON TOP OF A HORSE ONLY ONCE IN MY LIFE. I WAS TOO YOUNG TO KNOW WHAT LEADS TO WHAT I WAS DOING AND OBVIOUSLY I WAS NEVER TOLD HOW I WAS BEING REMOTELY OPERATED AND CONTROLLED AND PLAYED WITH THROUGH REMOTE TECHNOLOGY. NOBODY EVER TRAINED ME TO GET ON TOP OF HORSES WHEN I NEEDED IT THE MOST, MY ARMS AND LEGS HAVE ALWAYS FELT WASTED AND UNUSED AND MY BODY CAGED. WHEN I WAS VERY LITTLE MY FAMILY GIFTED ME 'LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD" AND I LOVED READING THROUGH THAT AND THAT IS THE CLOSEST I WAS EVER KEPT TO ANYTHING CALLED 'RIDING'. SO, NO HORSES EXIST IN MY LIFE, EVEN IF I WOULD HAVE ENJOYED OR LEARNT FROM IT.

ONLY IN THESE YEARS IN DELHI, WHEN I TRAVELED TO GULMARG,KASHMIR, ALONE AGAIN, I GOT ON TO A HORSE AGAIN AND I GOT JUST A FEW HORSE RIDING LESSONS IN DELHI.

BUT NOBODY OTHER THAN THAT HAS EVER BOTHERED TO TRAIN ME IN ANYTHING. AND AT THIS AGE I FEEL, MY VAGINA THAT ALREADY HAS A TORMENTED MEMORY RATHER NOT BE SPREAD ONTO HORSES EVER AND LET OTHER PEOPLE SPREAD THEIR LEGS ON THEM INSTEAD. THERE MIGHT BE A LOT OF TRAINED RIDERS, BUT I HAVE BEEN THIS SORT OF A RIDER AND I HAVE GREAT LOVE FOR THE HORSE, THESE MEMORIES OF RIDING IN THESE UNEXPECTED YEARS CAGED IN DELHI AGAIN, HAVE BEEN PRECIOUS.

Q) WHAT ABOUT BOLLYWOOD MUSIC AND CHILDHOOD???

OF COURSE A LOT OF BOLLYWOOD MUSIC AND MUSIC AND DANCE EXISTED IN MY LIFE AND I LOVED ALL BOLLYWOOD MUSIC,DANCES AND MUJRAS BUT STILL WANTED TO STUDY AND LEARN ABOUT NEW SCIENCE AND MEDIA. ITS CRAZY HOW MUCH I LOVED BOLLYWOOD IN MY LONELY CHILDHOOD YEARS IN DELHI.

Q) WHAT ABOUT CONTENT FROM OTHER COUNTRIES?

WHILE I WAS MADE A CONSUMER SINCE BIRTH OF INDIAN TELEVISION AND RETRO INDIAN CINEMA,I WAS GETTING PULLED TOWARDS CONSUMING AMERICAN CONTENT AT THE AGE OF 6, BUT I WAS STRONGLY PULLED AWAY FROM BECOMING A CONSUMER OF AMERICA AND EUROPE AND BY THE AGE OF 18 I WAS ONLY A CONSUMER OF INDIAN CONTENT, INDIAN EDUCATION AND STALE INDIA. WHATEVER I COULD HAVE COMMUNICATED WITH EUROPE OR AMERICA REMAINED ONLY IN MY OWN HEAD AND IMAGINATION AND NOT ENCOURAGED. THERE WAS NO DREAM OF ANY POSSIBILITY OR ASPIRATION TO TRAVEL OUTSIDE OF INDIA.

Q) IF SUCH AN ADVANCED SYSTEM OF REMOTE ACCESS HAS WATCHED YOU NUDE AND BARE SINCE 1980s AND ALL THROUGH 1990s. WHY DID THEY NEVER STOP YOU OR HELP YOU FROM SPREADING YOUR LEGS ON WOOD PIECES AND METAL, DID THEY NOT CARE IF WOOD SPLINTERS ENTERED YOUR VAGINA SINCE 10?

ANS)  OBVIOUSLY AS A KID WHO WAS STILL DECIDING TO BE GOOD OR BAD, I DID THESE THINGS WHEN "NO ONE IS WATCHING LIKE SO MANY OTHER THINGS I LIKED TO DO", BUT SUCH AN ADVANCED SYSTEM OF TECHNOLOGY IS WATCHING ME ON THE INSIDE ALL THE TIME. AN ADVANCED, EDUCATED SYSTEM OF SCIENTIFIC INVENTION IS ABLE TO ACCESS AND PENETRATE MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY SINCE CHILDHOOD KEEPING ME CAGED IN A HOME FOR 20 YEARS. THEY TELL ME INTO MY SKULL, THEY CAN REMOTELY ACCESS THE FACE,BRAIN,BODY AND DO WHATEVER THEY WANT, GIVE ARTIFICIAL THIRST,HUNGER,MODIFY MY BODY, FORCE ANY FACE ON MY FACE BUT GIVE NO PROFESSIONAL BREAK IN. THESE COULDN'T BE PEOPLE WHO CARED FOR ME. DESPITE ACCESS TO TECHNOLOGY TO REMOTELY ACCESS A GIRLCHILD'S FACE,BRAIN,BODY AND WATCHING HER GROW UP NUDE AND BARE AND DON'T EVEN STOP HER FROM SPREADING HER LEGS PENETRATING HER VAGINA WITH WOOD AND METAL, ARE PEOPLE WHO WANTED THE WORST TO HAPPEN TO ME, THAT I SHOULD BE BAD AND DESTROYED IN EVERY WAY AND THAT THEY SIMPLY DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME.
THE INDIAN ARMY PIMP BROTHEL INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL CLAIMED TO PUT ME ON AN ACTOR's STRUGGLE BUT DIDN'T EVEN DIRECT MY LIMBS IN ANY ACTIVE WAY. THEY JUST FOUND A REASON TO MY OWN FACE AND ACCESS MY BODY. THEY COULDN'T EVEN GIVE AN ACTOR TO ACT WITH ME, SO I AM HAPPY THAT THEIR INDIAN HINDU MALES DO NOT EXIST IN MY BRAIN AND LIFE AND WOODEN CHALKBOARD,WOODEN BEDSIDES, WOOD CHAIR,  METAL RAILINGS,PILLOWS, BLANKETS,FLOWERS AND A DOG HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME. I AM THANKFUL TO WOOD PIECES AND METAL RAILING STAIRCASES FOR ADDING MEANING AND MEMORY TO MY YOUTH AND CHILDHOOD.





THEY HAD ACCESS TO MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY AND USED IT FOR THEIR OWN SELVES WITHOUT FEELING FOR ME, THEY FORCED HUGE,OBESE,INDIAN FACES ON MY FACE, SO THAT IN EVERYONE'S EYES AND MY OWN EYES,THEY FOOL ME TO FEEL THAT MY FACE IS OBESE,BROWN INDIAN RACE OF SOUTH INDIANS,BENGALIS. THEY CARED ABOUT THEIR OWN INDIAN CHILDREN USING ME BUT NEVER ABOUT ME. I WAS IN MISERY,CAGED IN A ROOM, STRUGGLING, IN TEARS,CRYING, EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE SINCE CHILDHOOD.
WHAT USE ARE SUCH ADVANCES OF TECHNOLOGY, SUCH GREAT EDUCATED SCIENTIFIC INVENTIONS WHICH DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT A GIRL CHILD AND HER VAGINA BECAUSE THEY ARE SO BUSY ACCESSING HER AS FREE NUDE,BARE HUMAN RESOURCE ON A REMOTE WATCH.

Q)DO YOU FEEL THE WAY THEY HAVE ACCESSED AND PLAYED WITH YOU SINCE CHILDHOOD WITHOUT LETTING YOU KNOW, IS HUMAN RIGHTS ABUSE?

Ans) TO CALL IT HUMAN RIGHTS ABUSE, THEY MUST FIRST CONSIDER ME BORN A HUMAN BEING, THEY NEVER CONSIDERED ME HUMAN, THEY ARE SHOWING OFF THEIR ADVANCES OF SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY AND FAME AND MONEY FOR THEIR OWN HINDUS AND HAVE NO CARE FOR MY OWN THOUGHT OR FEELING EVEN TILL THE AGE OF 38. I WAS BEING MADE INTO A CONSUMER OF INDIA WHO NEVER GETS PAID, WHO IS MADE TO STRUGGLE AND ASPIRE IN INDIA SO THAT I KEEP STRUGGLING AND WHATEVER I SUCCEED IN OR STRUGGLE FOR, THEY  ME FROM BREAKING INTO IT AND PLACE THEIR OWN CHILDREN IN THOSE OPPORTUNITIES. AND FOR THAT MY OWN FACE IS EVERY DAY TO SHOW INDIAN HINDU FACES EVEN.AFTER MY SKIN WAS MASSACRED THROUGH ADULTERATED MILK. I AM NOT TOLD WHAT ALL THEY HAVE DONE TO MY BRAIN,FACE,FLESH,BREATHING SINCE CHILDHOOD, HOW MANY MALES AND FEMALES HAD THEIR BREATH FORCED INTO ME AND WHO ALL HAVE ACCESSED MY BRAIN AND BODY EVERY DAY AND NIGHT OF MY LIFE TILL THE AGE OF 38, THROUGH THEIR TECHNOLOGY OF REMOTE ACCESS.


Q) INDIANS HAVE GREATLY INTERNATIONALISED THEMSELVES, IN DELHI,BOMBAY AND TRAVELLING ABROAD. WHO ARE THE PEOPLE LIVING THE OPPORTUNITIES THROWN AT THEM?

Ans) THEIR OWN INDIAN CHILDREN, I WAS THROWN INTO UNPAID HOBBY SCAMS OF THE PAST LIKE THEATRE,PRINT,RADIO WHILE ALL THE PAID OPPORTUNITIES WERE KEPT FOR THEIR OWN INDIAN CHILDREN, THEY ARE THE ONES ENJOYING CAREERS IN MULTINATIONAL CORPORATES, SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY, ADVERTISING, MUSIC, COMMERCIAL TELEVISION AND RADIO ENTERTAINMENT, TELEVISION JOURNALISM AND OF COURSE FILM AND CINEMA. I AM NOT PART OF ANY WORK CREDIT IN ANY OF THESE THINGS. IT IS ALL ENJOYED BY INDIAN HINDU MALE AND INDIAN HINDU FEMALE.
ITS SO OBVIOUS INDIANS ARE ENJOYING PARTIES AND MONIES AND WORK CREDIT AND PROFESSIONS AND OPPORTUNITIES, CELEBRATING EVERY DAY WITH THEIR AMERICAN AND EUROPEAN OPPORTUNITY MAKERS.

Q) SO THEY WERE JUST WATCHING YOU MAKE PENETRATED WET PUSSY OUT OF YOU SINCE CHILDHOOD THROUGH ADVANCED SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY?? DIDN'T THEIR EDUCATION SYSTEM NEVER CARE ABOUT YOU??

ANS) THERE IS NO EDUCATION FOR ME IN INDIA, THEY USE ME AND I STUDIED OUT OF MY OWN CHOICE. THE INDIAN ARMY ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL IS A BROTHEL PROSS MAKING SYSTEM, WHERE GAMES AND ACTIVITIES ARE GIVEN ALL THE TIME AND THE INDIAN ARMY PIMPS AS MANY OF THEIR INDIAN ARMY SLUTS INTO MODELLING, ADVERTISING, BOLLYWOOD,FILM PROSTITUTION,SHOWMANSHIP AND OTHER MONEY MAKING PROSS GAMES. THAT INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL IS SUCH A WASTED SCHOOL SYSTEM THAT THEY DIDN'T BOTHER GETTING ANY OF THEIR BOYS,MEN OR MALES STANDING NEXT TO ME. I DON'T WANT TO GO ANYWHERE NEAR THAT INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL SYSTEM, THEY ARE AS NON EXISTENT FOR ME AS I WAS FOR THEM, EVEN THOUGH THEY USED ME, THEY WERE NOT INTERESTED IN ME, THEY WERE INTERESTED IN THEIR OWN PEOPLE AND OTHER PEOPLE. ALTHOUGH I WAS SENT TO THEIR INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL I FELT AND KNEW EARLY THAT THEY DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW ME OR BE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH ME. THEY HAVE THEIR OWN RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FATHER,MOTHER AND SISTERS WHO WERE BROUGHT UP IN THEIR AREAS AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS USED IN THEIR ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL, THEY CONTINUED TO RELATE ONLY WITH THEM, NOT WITH ME, SO WHATEVER THEY USED MY TIME FOR AND MADE ME DO IN THEIR INDIAN ARMY PUBLIC SCHOOL DOESN'T EXIST IN MY LIFE. WHATEVER I WAS MADE TO BE ON THE INDIAN ARMY SCHOOL STAGE AND WHATEVER MY TIME WAS USED THERE FOR BELONGS ONLY TO THEM AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.
SINCE I GREW UP CAGED IN A CIVIL AREA I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ANY INDIAN ARMY SLUT WHO GROWS UP EATING INDIAN ARMY RESOURCES AND TRAVEL.
AS FOR MAKING WET PUSSY, I AM SURE IF THEY CAN WATCH IT, THEY MUST BE MAKING WET PUSSY EVERYWHERE I STRUGGLED, WET PUSSIES ATTENDING CLASS ROOM AND TESTS AND EXAMS, WET PUSSIES STUDYING SCIENCE IN HIGH SCHOOL, WET PUSSIES STUDYING FOR MEDICAL ENTRANCE EXAMS, LAW ENTRANCE EXAMS, CAT MANAGEMENT ENTRANCE EXAMS, WET PUSSIES IN MEDIA AND JOURNALISM, WET PUSSIES AS AN INDIAN STUDENT IN FOREIGN UNIVERSITY, WET PUSSIES ON RADIO BROADCAST, PRINT JOURNALISM, THEATRE STAGE OTHER THAN WET PUSSIES AS CONSUMER FILM SCHOOL WHICH IS WHERE MINE BELONGS.

Q) DESPITE YOUR STRUGGLE AND DESPITE YOUR SITUATION YOU WERE FINALLY FREE AT AGE 21 AND AVAILABLE FOR  BOMBAY PROFESSIONALLY. WHY HAVE THEY NEVER GIVEN YOU A BREAK IN INTO THEIR INDIAN SYSTEM OR LED TO ANYTHING LIFE CHANGING?

Ans) THEIR INDIAN SYSTEM MUST HAVE BEEN SO USED TO CAGING AND ACCESSING MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY AS NUDE,BARE RESOURCE TO BE REMOTELY ACCESSED AND STRUGGLING FOR 21 YEARS THAT ALL THEIR INDIAN OPPORTUNISTS KNOW THEY HAVE TO REJECT,AVOID ME AND THE INDIAN SYSTEM WILL GIVE THEM WHATEVER THEY WANT FOR ENDING ME, INSTEAD OF GIVING ME A BEGINNING.

Q) WHAT ABOUT ALL THE FAMOUS HINDU FAECES FILM DIRECTORS OF BUMBAY THAT YOU APPROACHED AS YOU STRUGGLED FOR BREAK IN AND WORK CREDIT LIKE THE SHOWMAN SUBHASH GHAI.AND THE GAY DICK KAALA MOTTA POT BELLY TONND WHORE ANURAG KASHYAP, DID THEY NOT GIVE YOU ANY WORK CREDIT OR BREAK IN???

Ans) I AM TELLING YOU, HOW I AM  BY THE INDIAN SYSTEM. I AM NOT BROKEN IN TO ANY INDIAN SYSTEM FOR ANY WORK CREDIT, INSTEAD OF ME BEING THE NEW BREAK IN INTO THE INDIAN SYSTEM, THOSE FAT INDIAN HINDU MALE WHORES BECOME THE NEW BREAK IN, THEY MONKEY UP AND BECOME THE NEW BREAK.INS. THEY GET LAKHS AND CRORES PUMPED INTO THEM FOR REJECTING ME AND WORK CREDIT AFTER WORK CREDIT IS THROWN AT THEM FOR ENTERING ADVERTISING BUSINESS, TELEVISION MEDIA PUBLICITY, FOREIGN TRAVEL LIFESTYLES, THEY ARE GIVEN WORK CREDIT AND MONIES IN EVERYTHING FROM ACTING TO SCRIPTWRITING TO HINDI FILM MAKING AND FOREIGN FLIGHTS. THE MORE THEIR INDIAN SYSTEM REJECTS AND AVOIDS ME, THE MORE THEY ARE PAID TO GET BUSINESS, WORK CREDIT AND WHORING PROSTITUTION AND PROSTITUTES.
ALL WORK IN BOMBAY IS GIVEN TO THE ERECT INDIAN HINDU MALE AND ERECT INDIAN HINDU FEMALE, NOBODY  THEM AND THEY ENJOY UNINTERRUPTED WORK CREDIT AND TRAVEL AND BUSINESS IN PEACE.

EVERYONE IN THE INDIAN ARMY IS A WHORE AND EVERYONE IN THE FILM,TV CITY OF BOMBAY IS A WHORE AND PROSTITUTE, WHETHER THEY ARE ACTRESS,SCRIPTWRITER,DIRECTOR OR ANY OTHER PAID,UNPAID JOB, THEIR REAL.JOB IS ONLY TO BE A WHORE, THAT'S WHY THEY ARE THERE.
I CAME BACK.UNLOVED FROM BOLLYWOOD AS WELL. BOLLYWOOD IS ALL ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY LOVE THEIR BLACK.AND BROWN INDIAN HINDU FEMALE OF ALL SHAPES AND SIZES EVEN IF THEY HAVE TO PURCHASE FOREIGN FLESH FOR THEM.

Q) DELHI UNIVERSITY GAVE YOU TRAVEL TO PAKISTAN AND MELBOURNE, WHY DIDN'T INDIA GIVE YOU TRAVEL TO ANYWHERE AFTER THAT?

Ans) I AM TELLING YOU WHAT THE INDIAN SYSTEM DOES TO ME, DESPITE MY AVAILABILITY IN INDIA ALL MY LIFE, THEY DON'T MAKE ME TRAVEL TO ANYWHERE, I WENT TO BOMBAY ALONE ON MY OWN, THE INDIAN SYSTEM ALONG WITH THE REMOTE ACCESS SYSTEM LIKES TO SEE ME ON THE STREETS OF INDIA ALONE WITH NO MALE COMPANION, IN TEARS AND STRUGGLE AND INSTEAD OF MAKING ME TRAVEL WITH THEM, THEY ERECT THEIR OWN SELVES AND THEIR INDIAN PEOPLE TRAVELLING EVERY DAY ALL ACROSS INDIA AND FOREIGN FLIGHTS. INDIANS ARE BUSY HOARDING MONEY AND PROFESSIONAL WORK CREDITS THEY DON'T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY STILL KEPT UNPAID AGE 38 WITH STILL NOT EVEN ANY MONEY TO PURCHASE CLOTHES.

Q) IS THAT WHY YOU HAVE STOPPED CONSUMING INDIAN CONTENT??

Ans) I AM TORMENTED EVER SINCE I STOPPED CONSUMING INDIAN CONTENT, WHILE I WAS CONSUMING INDIAN CONTENT SINCE CHILDHOOD THERE WAS NO OTHER OPTION, I DIDN'T KNOW ANY OTHER WORLD EXISTED FOR ME AND I WAS SPOILING MYSELF AND SELF DESTRUCTING IN IT. EVER SINCE I FREED MYSELF FROM ASPIRING TO STRUGGLE IN THE INDIAN SYSTEM, I REALISED YEARS AND YEARS OF MY LIFE SINCE CHILDHOOD WERE DIRECTED TO CONSUME INDIAN CONTENT, HOW MANY YEARS WASTED IN CONSUMING INDIA'S EDUCATION, INDIAN ADVERTISING, INDIAN FILM, INDIAN TELEVISION, INDIAN MUSIC, INDIAN WRITING, WHO WERE THESE PEOPLE, I THOUGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THEIR OWN, NOW I KNOW THEY DIDN'T GIVE ME THEIR OPPORTUNITIES OR ANY LIFE FOR ME, THEY HAVE HATED ME, THEY WANTED ME DESTROYED OR  THEY JUST WANTED TO COVET MY SKIN AND FLESH INTERNALLY, FORCE THEIR OWN VAIN INDIAN FACES ON MY FACE TO BEAUTIFY THEIR OWN SELVES FORCING THEIR INDIAN HINDU MOTTI FACES ON MY FACE BY FORCE, TO COPY AND LOOT MY SPIRIT AND PERSONALITY AND MARKET IT AS THEIR OWN OR THAT OF THEIR CHILDREN AND TO DESTROY MY FRESH FACE AND SKIN ALTOGETHER WHILE CAREFULLY MAKING THEIR OWN INDIAN CHILDREN PROSPER IN EUROPE,AMERICA AND ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD.
MY SPIRIT IS TORMENTED, MY SENSES DON'T WANT TO GO ANYWHERE NEAR  CONSUMING INDIAN FILM,TV,MUSIC,NEWS,RELIGION,EDUCATION,POLITICS,PEOPLE ANYMORE.

Q) WHAT ABOUT ALL THE EFFORT YOU MADE ASPIRING AND STRUGGLING IN INDIA?

ANS) SINCE AN ADVANCED SYSTEM OF TECHNOLOGY HAS ACCESSED MY FACE,EYES,BRAIN,BODY,SENSES SINCE CHILDHOOD AND HAVE BRED ME TO BECOME NOTHING MORE THAN A CONSUMER CAGED IN DELHI AND STRUGGLING TO BE FREE, THEY HAVE ACCESS TO EVERYTHING IN MY BRAIN,SKULL,EYES,SENSES AND BY MY OWN SKIN AND FACE OUT OF THEIR WAY AND NOT MAKING ME ANY PROFESSIONAL ACTOR OR FILM MAKER OR PROFESSIONAL BROADCASTER, THEY HAVE ACCESS TO ALL MY CHILDHOOD DREAMS, ASPIRATIONS,STRUGGLE AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT EXISTS IN MY HUMAN BODY TO USE AS FREE SOURCE MATERIAL WHICH THEY MUST BE USING AS THEIR OWN SELVES.
I KNOW 38 YEARS OF MY LIFE SPENT IN INDIA HAVE BEEN STOLEN BUT I DO NOT ASPIRE TO CONSUME INDIA OR TO WORK OR STRUGGLE ANYMORE IN INDIA.

Q) IS THAT WHY THEY YOUR SKIN AND NEVER MADE YOU PART OF THEIR INDIAN FAME SYSTEMS AND NEVER MADE YOU FAMOUS??

ANS) THEY ARE TOO BUSY CONSUMING THEIR OWN SELVES AS FAMOUS AND TOO BUSY ENJOYING THE VANITY OF WORK, CAREER,PROFESSION,STUDY AND MARRIED LIVES, THEY DON'T CARE OR BOTHER. EVEN THOUGH I HAVE LIVED NOWHERE OTHER THAN INDIA, NOBODY KNOWS THAT A CHILD SIM3 HAS BEEN BORN,BRED IN INDIA AND ACCESSED AND USED SINCE CHILDHOOD AND TORMENTED AND TRAUMATISED SINCE CHILDHOOD.

YOU CAN READ THIS AND SEE FOR YOURSELF WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO MY LIFE AND PERSONALITY EVEN AT THE AGE OF  38. I AM NOT REVEALING THIS TORMENT AS A CREDITED ACTRESS,FILMMAKER OR JOURNALIST OR ANY OTHER PROFESSION , I HAVEN'T LIVED ANY OF THOSE LIVES OR CAREERS, BUT TO BE COMPELLED TO MY  OWN BARE SELF IN MY OWN WORDS,  TILL THE AGE OF 38 WHILE NEW AND ADVANCED TECHNOLOGIES ADD MORE MONIES AND PARTIES TO PEOPLE LIKE HINDU INDIANS AND THEIR ONGOING FUCK AND MONEY PARTY CONTINUES WHERE EUROPE AND AMERICA KEEP PUMPING MONIES AND LIFESTYLE AND CAREERS AND TRAVEL INTO INDIAN HINDUS AND THEY DON'T GIVE ME A BEGINNING TO ANY WORK OR LIFE, TILL THE AGE OF 38 THEY DON'T EVEN MAKE,ME EARN TO BUY CLOTHES TO WEAR. IN INNOCENCE I WANTED THEIR INDIANS TO PROSPER AND PROGRESS BECAUSE IT'S WITHIN MY PERSONALITY TO WANT EVERYTHING I AM SURROUNDED WITH TO PROSPER WITH LOVE. SO THAT THEY WILL ALSO GIVE ME A LIFE TO LIVE AND WORK WITH THEM BUT THEY WANTED ME TO BE DESTROYED AND AND LOOTED ME OF EVERYTHING. WHAT ARE THEIR EUROPEAN AND AMERICAN POWER GIVERS PAYING THEM CRORES AND LAKHS OF RUPEES ,DOLLARS AND POUNDS FOR??

THERE IS NO REAL EDUCATION GIVEN TO ME IN INDIA, I LEARNT HOW TO READ ENGLISH IN THEIR SCHOOL AND AT HOME AND ACCESS THE WEB AND COMPUTER. ALL OF INDIAN EDUCATION AND INDIAN CONSUMPTION LED MY FACE,BRAIN,BODY TOWARDS THE HINDU SCHEDULED CASTE SERVANT QUARTERS OF BOMBAY AND I WILL NEVER GO THERE AGAIN.

I REALISED THE WAY I HAVE BEEN ACCESSED SINCE CHILDHOOD IS NOT ABOUT ENTERTAINMENT, IT IS NEW AGE WARFARE, THEY HAVE BEEN AT WAR WITH ME SINCE MY INNOCENT CHILDHOOD AND FOR 38 YEARS NOW. THEY MY FACE ESPECIALLY, EVEN NOW WHEN I WANT TO TAKE A FULL PICTURE OF MYSELF FOR MEMORY FOR THE RARE, FEW PHOTOS I HAVE OF MYSELF, THEY SHOOT AND  MY OWN FACE AND REPLACE IT THROUGH REMOTE TECHNOLOGY WITH A KAALI MOTTI INDIAN HINDU RACE FACE OR MALE FACES TO TORMENT ME EVEN AFTER CONTINUOUSLY MY SKIN WITH ADULTERATED MILK AND SALT. WHAT MEMORY SHOULD I HAVE ANYMORE ABOUT THE DIRT,FILTH INDIAN COUNTRY INDIA AND THEIR EUROPEAN AND AMERICAN POWER SUPPLIERS AND CARETAKERS AND LOVERS. IT HAS BEEN A MEANINGLESS LIFE AND STRUGGLE IN INDIA SINCE. CHILDHOOD WHERE IT COULD JUST HAVE BEEN A WORKING, HAPPY,PROFESSIONAL, ACTIVE LIFE IN INDIA IN MY OWN FACE,SKIN,THOUGHT AND FEELING.

MY SOUL HAS BEEN STRIPPED OPEN SINCE CHILDHOOD FOR 38 YEARS BUT I AM NOT MADE PART OF ANY ART TO HEAL ME AND THE REMOTE ACCESS TECHNOLOGY RAPISTS CONTINUE TO TORMENT EVERY DAY AND NIGHT OF MY LIFE.

THE ONLY FEELING I HAVE IS I HAVE BEEN  SINCE CHILDHOOD, MY OWN FACE HAS BEEN MURDERED SINCE CHILDHOOD THROUGH REMOTE TECHNOLOGY. AND MY SPIRIT TORMENTED, WHICH IS HOW I AS A PERSON HAVE BEEN SINCE CHILDHOOD WHICH IS WHY ALL OF MY STRUGGLE SINCE CHILDHOOD HAS BEEN STOLEN, ALL OF MY LIFE HAS BEEN STOLEN WHILE OTHERS HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFYING AND PRETTYIFYING THEIR OWN SELVES.