Monday, May 21, 2001
Tuesday, March 20, 2001
Thursday, February 01, 2001
Hidden Identity of the 'coloured' self
Growing up in Delhi, India my face has been played with through a face-play technology since childhood and many times since childhood i recognised faces of colour being forced on my face, so i was experiencing what it feels like to be living in somebody elses face and skin, questioning it and trying to deal with it. Additionally, I was brought up in a Delhi home disconnected from Kashmir and was made to consume much black and white content of indian film so I have had a very curious relationship with colour, the presence and absence of it.
Wednesday, August 09, 2000
New Delhi memory
Bad memories of Delhi home and family - the 1990's
Of a nagging father who would express his rude loudness at his wife each morning and evening.
Of a struggling working mother who felt compensated by a government granted show home and needed to express herself through forced food or retro content on television.
Of older sisters who seemed to complement each other but had only humiliation for my birth and existence.
and the humiliating way in which each of them spoke
Of chairs, tables, bed, text books,radio, television,the newspaper and darkness
That's all India needed, was an image audience mind to be false labelled a schizophrenic brain, mind and life and innocent childhood for free, locked up in government areas, that it could spy into, whose dark, lonely, schizophrenic imaginary world for it's own creative and emotional survival could be used for free to steal, loot, thoughts, ideas, dreams, concepts, that would be given to someone else on a platter to shop from and set a money making shop with.
Then they needed to covet my face, so that they used their high technology and played with my face, taking away my own muzzafarabadi face and replacing it internally with technology by the faces they wanted forced on mine, while my own spirit fought with the internal control and internal play system i was unware about while i fought with the school text books to be a high mark achiever as per the demands specifically made for me by the parents.
India loots, steals, set shops, sells, destroys then discards.
INDIA, NOW LIVE WITH ALL THE REPLACEMENT SHOPS THAT YOU CREATED.
KEEP SELLING THEM AS FAMOUS NAMES AND FACES AND FILL YOUR POCKETS AND THEIRS TO THEIR CREDIT AND YOURS TILL YOU ARE SATISFIED AT THE THEFT OF LIFE.
Bad memories of the Delhi home - 2012-2016
Of what you people did to me here as i read your newspapers and saw your television again, whoever you are,
Of a nagging father who would express his rude loudness at his wife each morning and evening.
Of a struggling working mother who felt compensated by a government granted show home and needed to express herself through forced food or retro content on television.
Of older sisters who seemed to complement each other but had only humiliation for my birth and existence.
and the humiliating way in which each of them spoke
Of chairs, tables, bed, text books,radio, television,the newspaper and darkness
That's all India needed, was an image audience mind to be false labelled a schizophrenic brain, mind and life and innocent childhood for free, locked up in government areas, that it could spy into, whose dark, lonely, schizophrenic imaginary world for it's own creative and emotional survival could be used for free to steal, loot, thoughts, ideas, dreams, concepts, that would be given to someone else on a platter to shop from and set a money making shop with.
Then they needed to covet my face, so that they used their high technology and played with my face, taking away my own muzzafarabadi face and replacing it internally with technology by the faces they wanted forced on mine, while my own spirit fought with the internal control and internal play system i was unware about while i fought with the school text books to be a high mark achiever as per the demands specifically made for me by the parents.
India loots, steals, set shops, sells, destroys then discards.
INDIA, NOW LIVE WITH ALL THE REPLACEMENT SHOPS THAT YOU CREATED.
KEEP SELLING THEM AS FAMOUS NAMES AND FACES AND FILL YOUR POCKETS AND THEIRS TO THEIR CREDIT AND YOURS TILL YOU ARE SATISFIED AT THE THEFT OF LIFE.
Bad memories of the Delhi home - 2012-2016
Of what you people did to me here as i read your newspapers and saw your television again, whoever you are,
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